helpless

"Sunday, Apr 6th, 2008 -- You aren't as hesitant today about expressing your darker feelings and may not be able to stop yourself from saying what's on your mind. This isn't about you suddenly turning aggressive; it's about listening to your inner voice. Don't keep your thoughts locked up even if you're not sure about the consequences of disclosure"

it is my horoscope for today, i started to wonder how true is it? how many percent i can believe in it? i really gonna crazy.. i felt so much fed up with my current so called "friendship".. why is it like this? i feel sad with it.. is it my problem as i treat them not good enough? why must there be so many conflicts? why cant everyone be friend like old days? why..? what is the thing gone wrong now??
im so fed up right now.. i cant see a hope anymore in this friendship.. evryone seems to be think of their own benefits oni and ignoring others' feeling.. how could this be? ugh... why the friends i met now is so much different with those in the past days.. well. i know the world has been changing, im now staying at a competitive world, only those who are stronger can survive and those who are weak will be forced to quit... and im one of the weakest.. but what is the use of friend?? when u need help, they will lend u their hand.. when u are happy, they happy with you..
is this kind of friend not exist anymore??? what in their mind is all other stuffs??$$?love?result? sigh..
im sad sad sad sad sad....
but i cannot do anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate for my helplesssssssss....