BANG CRIMINAL LAW TEST!!

After been coming here for more than one months,
finally i faced exam for the first time in my uni life, well, nothing to be happy for,
but atleast it chased away my slack-ness,atleast i m studying for it!
because of the kiasu-ness implant in my body as a scholar(i guess)
U JUST DONT WANT TO FAIL THE EXAM, for no matter what reason,
so you will basically take up the book u dump aside for such a long time and start reading,
atleast the result is im reading, no matter i really understand the content or not~!!
atleast my heart will feel much better, that i no longer become a "fei cai",
i still have some useful way, which is i can read.. and the time is spend worthwhile (hmm, it is a way to console myself)
then today is the day! yeah, the day of the exam,
maybe because of i have been off from the exam track for such a long time, i don quite use for the exam d, i cant write fast, i feel like my hand is cramping, which make me so difficult to write out the answer, wtf.. my handwritting is damn CACATed...
maybe because we used to write LONG answer, that why today i feel such an insecure because my answer is actually quite short, i think this is a kind of sickness d..
then.. im so wtf not used with the informal way of CLASS test..
can u imagine, while u are day dreaming or readying for the test, perhaps prayiing(of cos im not doing that) then out of sudden the invigilator will instrust: you can start writing d..then you will start read at the question, after u finish reading the question, u suddenly PEEP on the person in front of you actually finished the 1st question.. OMG..
i was so damn panicking because of her!!!!! then my mind turned blank.. so the lessont is never peep on others, and let ur concentration or mind flee away.. SOBS...
after finish the 50mins test, we handed up our paper, then.. we went out to the class.. (end)
really a release of sigh after the test, thought can realxx, too bad i have a continuation of 5 hours lecture, so i need to run to my lecture venue, which is soooooo tiring!!!!! then there is aa pop quiz for me again, so lucky that the test is actually INTRO to LEGAL question oni, which i almost learn all of them from SAM.. since the first time in my life, or since i came to monash, i really thankful for the legal knowledge i learnt at SAM. it helps a lot..
well, such a many bullshit, and i dono why im typing it out .. just for the sake of typing i guess,
because after the test, really feel like giving myself a break, not to study for tonight!! wahaha.. finding another excuses to slack again, poor cheng yah...
AND the another great news is that after such a long lecture and tiring day, TOMORROW IS WEDNESDAY. what so great about that? I HAVE NO LECTURE!! which is the happiest and should be celebrate with chaimpagne.. LOL..
today while i was on the contract law lecture, i peeped on another girl who sitting in front of me again.( hmm, well im not used to peep on ppl, just so happen today peep for twice! lol. i used to observe people instead. xD) she was sms-ing with her phone, then she typed "i-miss-you" and sent it out. well, it is not a weird thing to mention or strange thing either, it is just at that moment, i start to wondering, how long since i ever sent such a sms, simple but full with hearts..
how long since i miss someone badly which i used to when i was young? i need some fresh love i guess. i need to recall back the sweet feeling when you are on a date. the sweet and sour feels..the nervous the anxiety while waiting for someone sms. NOw my life seems to be so dull.. i need some refreshment. LOL... im not desperating.. i swear.. i just wish to find a sweet guy.. and fall in love with him.. ^^ (dreaming....sweet dreamssss....)
(p/s: my mom will slap me if she come to this page and ask me to study hard rather than day-dreaming) hahaha...

i need more time, in fact i shouldnt waste time. sigh to myself!

it is ages ago since i came to this blog site and start typing again,
well, my life isnt that busy overall, but just seem to have not enough time for me to finish my work..
why damn law fucking need a lot of reading, and who tell me law is only need memorising.. you are damn wrong man! and im so suffer right now.
haha, well, not that serious maybe, it is just fun to be confused by your lecture sometimes, especially come to contract law or when they are using some cute cute latin words.
it is fun if you enjoy it. yeah im not hate it either, it is just i need more time for the reading, because i wont be able to sit down there for 24 hours and do my reading only.
i have alot more of stuffs waiting for me to complete too.
i need to cook, eat, sleep, shit, bath, wash clothes, facebook, msn, skype, phone, which play equivalent role in my life too! see, i have so many to do. haha.
i sound eccentric huh.LOL. whatso ever. sometimes u just need to be silly to make yourself happy, agree?
our school offer a special condition for non-english speaking background student, which we can actually given 30 mins more for our final exam in sem1, i thought tender the application form before submitance date will be sufficient, who knows we needed to be accessed by a learning skill advisor. lucky thing she is friendly though..
yesterday finally get to meet another bunch of scholars who study at melbourne uni, at a so called MASCA gathering at malaysian hall. well, nice to meet them.. have a great time serious, when u finally met someone u are familiar with in this piece of land. i started to miss subang d...
sometimes i do feel lonely by staying here. when i wanna call someone to talk ( obvious that my 3 cap plan still have lot of time to call, LOL ) i cant even find someone to call..sobss.. so sad le!!!!!!! and my skype have endless time to finishh also, anyone who have skype account please add me la, then we can be connected ma! hehe.. account name is naughty_darling. (remark: im damn desperate d le!! ) haha
i wonder how i look like in others eye? am i only a normal one? or the ugly one? or the most impossible category which is the pretty one? haha. i thought im those "sun yan" type, but why.. no guy come and know me de???! fed up d la.. thought wan to find a new guy right here...now hoepeless liao la.. no friends, no guy, no study.. wahhhhh.. my life is dull.. wat left? luckily still got food.. end up, keep eating to satisfy myself.. then result is???? omg.. "mou ngan tai"(cantonese pls) leng zai leng zai pls come to me..
i saw others friend get to know so many seniors, for them it is like sap sap water, why i can never meet one??????
next tuesday have a criminal test oo, how ar how ar? then my assignment due date is croaching towards me d, but then not even single words is typeddd.. i know im proscinating, arrrghh. i donwan aso de arrr....some more some more, i have mood to cook again.. haha. spending another hour in cooking curry chicken, well, lum cooked the chicken and i fried the vege and do the cleaning stuff, but it takes up time too..

deng deng deng .. here come our homemade nasi lemak. hehe.. so time spent is worth it right.. *proud*!! hehe.. so weird that under exam pressure, we still have the pleisure to cook. haha.. weird weird.. but taste nice nice!! thumb up~ LOL... anyone who wanna taste pls come to melb and find me~ haha... ( i will be humble a bit bit, the taste actually is ok ok only, but atleast you wont vomit and get diarheaa after having it, haha.. ) *just meant for sharing*

i m now thinking of next menu, we had out of idea wat to cook, it is like so standard that we ate the same food all the time. and because of the COLES potato is so cheap, we actually bought back 3kg of it because it is the only size offer, other than that it is 5kg, which we can never finish consume it in a short time.. so how to get rid of it???!!! to all the food experts out there, please share with me your secret recipe?! hehe. i miss my mummy's foodd!!!

after coming here, i m so damn reluctant to come out from my bed every morning because of the cold weather out thr.. i think i had accumulated too many of lazy habits le.. even taking a shower aso i feel lazy sometimes, of cos i did shower everyday,don worry because everytime at the end my rationality will won against my laazineess and force myself to drag my body to the toilet..(lazy devil:hate the rational angel)

i guess i need to find back my own passionate in studying in order to stay focus! what is my final goal will be? i need to have some sort of target so that it can drive me till the end? if not, i dono whether im able to survive till the very end or not?? i need some ears to listen to me, i need some arms to give me warm hugs, i need some money to buy me my space( who don need money, bullshit! LOL) i need more and more and more...

easter holiday is coming in two weeks time, i guess it is going to burn because i need to stay at home and finish my undone assignment court report.. sobssss.. HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE! buy more chocolate.~because it is nice and cheap right now. haha..

control

I ATE ALOT SINCE I CAME TO AUSTRALIA.
DAMN! WHAT THE F*CK!!!!!!!!!!
I HAVE TO CONTROL MYSELF..
I NEED TO STOP ALL THESE...
STOP STOP STOP..
EAT LESSSSSSSSSSSSS
READ MOREEEEEEEEEE
sobs...

a pig's story

i wonder why i can sleep so much and eat so much.
but i din study much. wth...
i think im going to become a pig..
depress of this le!!!!!

autumm...

it is autumm right now.
so far i din see any shiny day.
instead i had raining day or cloudy day for these few days..
wow, time to be emo!! LOL
since i was a malaysian born chinese girl.. i never experience four season.
this is my first time to really know what an autumm is..
however, it is a bit different with what u always know from tv,
there is no falling leaves, but there is dried leave flying everywhere..
and there is rain for melbourne!! and strong wind!
today i woke up in a raining morning, which is so much alike with malaysia weather.
don even want to climb myself out from the warm bed..
lastly, sleep till 12 o clock. omg..
this is so terrible,
uni life is stressful, yet it still cant motivate me to study..
come on come on, i can see a big disaster behind my procasination...
i wen out to market and my money flies again..
how to keep my money secure in my wallet..
they seem to be having leg and run anywhere, except staying securely in my purse..
argggh, so hard to catch them...

我，来红了..
不是什么隆重的事，
但是，心情开豁的多了，
PMS真的那么严重吗？
我想..
我认真怀疑，我得了忧郁症，
幸好，雨过天晴了.. （松一口气）
有时间，真该想想，该取个英文名了，
但是，那一个又适合我呢？
昨天，seminar 时，有人又该死的问了：
为什么你要读法律？我顿时回答不出，
到底，是为了什么？被迫？没有..
我甘之如腴，但是总有种感觉，
我应该更适合某个项目，
找到适合的，才不会压力，才不会想放弃，
才能enjoy~对吧!

朋友， 我爱你

今天，晴，
或许，是那温和的阳光，照亮了我的心情...
是时候，清醒了吧~
做事积极点，读书用功点，感情忘了就好...
朋友，找个知心，能聊天的，就算只有一个，总好过hi-bye粉丝
大学，茫茫人海里，能找到一个，又谈何容易？根本没人能记得我的姓名，
还是，珍惜眼前人，我相信，你们是对我好的，是我的朋友，
我爱你们~

痛苦的开始

终于，开学了，
上了第一堂课，感觉还好吧~
毕竟，今天我只有一节课，而且还不是law subject ,
为时一小时，轻松嗬~
但是，明天将会有课直落到七点，这是先甜后苦，还是先苦后甘？？
因为，星期三我又没课了，呵呵！
今晚天气预测会有暴风，最好躲在家里抱着棉被睡觉，多希望此事此刻，有个温暖的怀抱，
啊！别发梦了~（ 掌自己）
法律，真的很像很难读！
或许，不出三个月，我会发疯！

自闭

我不是故意的，
我只是暂时不想交际，不想讲话，
因为，我发现，我失去了沟通的能力，
不再懂得语言，赞美，反而被批评取代
我觉得我自己很讨人厌，说的每一句话都如蛇蝎般恶毒，
为什么要把自己关起来，
我觉得自己仿佛得了自闭，
不再摊开心胸，不能接受新环境，
我觉得，自己太过固执，不容易接受新东西，
把自己的生活弄得一塌糊涂，
人活着，到底是要习惯，抑或是不断改变，来习惯新的环境
原谅我，给我少少时间，
或许，我能开朗多一点点，
现在的我，仿佛烧坏了脑..

别以为你很懂得爱情,
因为,爱情并不是由你控制,
它,并没有你想象的简单,单纯
它,已变质了
它,已掺杂了许多因素,
它,不再是爱情,
它,只是披着爱情的名字,
但意义已不再有.

走了

我想, 我是任性的吧~
昨晚,不顾一切的跑了出去,
饿着肚子,穿着短裤,披着外套,就奔向那吹着冷风的大街,
一个人走着,来到车站,
一个人站着,等着那迟迟不到的巴士,
夜,渐渐的黑,
路,渐渐的冷清

还是,自己一个人,站在街上

风,还是不停的吹,
环抱着自己的身体,希望可以从中取的一丝丝的温暖,
盼望着车子的到来
终于, 来了, 我走了.