让我懒

他对我说：
情侣之间，最重要的是信任，否则，后果不堪设想，最终也会分手下场.
我们之间，对对方的信任程度够吗？
不然，我们就不会冷战吧~
昨天，匆忙路过一件书店之际，忽然瞄到一句还蛮有意思的句子，
“我们再错的时间相遇， 却在对的时间分开”
听起来有点莫名其妙，但是他却能给我一种感觉，一种特别的感觉，
他让我由衷冲动把他买下来，但是，却被我理智拉回来了。
所以，最后，那本书还是安详的躺在原位上， 原封不动。
最近，显得有点懒散，什么也不想做， 我想，我已经证实患了“懒惰病”， 而且还到了无药可救的地步。
天啊~！救救我吧！

疯狂。

Saturday, Jun 28th, 2008 --
Although you might want to cancel the invitations you sent out for the dinner party at your house or stay home from the engagement already on your calendar, it's important to follow through with your existing social plans. Once you are in the flow of things, you'll remember why you scheduled the activity, as the chances are you'll have a delightful time.

今天，心情有点郁闷，
习惯了有你的陪伴，才发现没有你陪在我左右，
竟然是那么的难熬，所以我做了一个决定，
出去逛街，看场电影，吃顿丰富的晚餐，好好的安慰自己，
虽然有点浪费时间，而且毫无收获，
但是，本小姐开心就好~哈~！你又奈我如何？
其实，心里还蛮想疯狂一次，做一些不曾做过的事， 但是却不忍看到荷包出血，
所以，还是压制自己内心的欲望为妙
阿~！！！！ 谁要陪我一起疯~

爱

什么是爱？
爱了，就想要拥有，
但是上天往往喜欢与你开玩笑，
它让你爱了，但却不让你拥有，
让你受尽思念的痛，让你痛不欲生，
当你不爱了，他却让爱再次的出现，
让他再次的折磨你，
这就是爱~

无言

突如其来的，接受到来自一位朋友的信息，
他说：他与女朋友闹翻了，非常的不开心。
顿时， 心情非常的复杂，不知如何形容，
但是千百般的感觉不停的在心中反复沸腾，
我也不知为什么我会有这种感觉，
只知道，最近有千百种感觉，对以不同的事情，
但是却不能用字语来形容。
千语尽在不言中。

demotivated

im demotivated..
dono what to do..
a lot of things waiting for me..
but..
im sooo lazy~~

unfortune day

what a tired day..
i went to kl..
and the funny thing is i took the wrong bus,
so.. i reached klang..
so much panic at that time, and i feel soo guilty for letting my grandma waited me for almost two hours..
sob sob...
i got a new phone.. (konon)
it is frm my mum cos she got it free from her company annual dinner's lucky draw..
quite excited actually for a new phone actually..
but, i get kinda upset for it..
it is so much different from wat i expect..
haih..
i think i prefer my old one than this new one...
so ironic~

B.L.U.E

i feel a little bit blue right now..
jus came back from Taylors,
my mind is sleepy and i feel tired.. for staying whole day in the school.
one whole day, i feel i passed my day like a walking zombee..
i don feel cheers at all, instead i felt a bit of stress.
but where does the stress come from ? i don understand.
actualy i had promised myself not to be sad anymore.
i told myself no matter what happen, i shall face it with a more cheerful attitude.
i should be a little bit more optismic.
i wish i could have someone by my side now, simple jusy companying me to finish this whole long lonely night.
need not to talk.
just stay beside me, and listen to each other breathe.
until i fall asleep into the dreamland.
but i cant feel your love.
so many people surrounding me, begging for my love.
and the funny part is i reserve it to you.
without realising, time flee..
in a shortwhile, july going to crawl into my life.
use to be the sweetest month in my previous life.
what will happen this year?
going to taste the feeling of loneline for the very first experience?

good night.
the post end here..
with a blue feeling...

SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WTF!!!!
it just disappeared without saying anything.
wasting all my time and energy on it~!!
urghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate the feeling of losss...
now have to restart everything from beginning again...
MY EFFORT!!!! JUST THROWN INTO THE SEA LIKE THIS..
wth...
feel like cursing...and swearing...
but it will never come back to me again...
saddddddddddddddd........
my legal assignment...
just gone because of stupid virus........
sob~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

趁早

到後來才發現愛你是一種習慣
我學會和你說一樣的謊
你總是要我在你身旁　
說幸福該是什麼模樣
你給我的天堂　
其實是一片荒涼
要是我早可以和你一刀兩斷　
我們就不必在愛裡勉強　
可是我真的不夠勇敢　
總為你忐忑為你心軟　
畢竟相愛一場　
不要誰心裡帶著傷
我可以永遠笑著扮演你的配角　
在你的背後自己煎熬　
如果你不想要　
想退出要趁早　
我沒有非要一起到老　
我可以不問感覺繼續為愛討好　
冷眼的看著你的驕傲　
若有情太難了　
想別戀要趁早　
就算迷戀你的擁抱　
忘了就好
要是我早可以和你一刀兩斷　
我們就不必在愛裡勉強　
可是我真的不夠勇敢　
總為你忐忑為你心軟　
畢竟相愛一場　
不要誰心裡帶著傷
我可以永遠笑著扮演你的配角　
在你的背後自己煎熬　
如果你不想要　
想退出要趁早　
我沒有非要一起到老　
我可以不問感覺繼續為愛討好　
冷眼的看著你的驕傲　
若有情太難了　
想別戀要趁早　
就算迷戀你的擁抱　
忘了就好愛已至此　
怎樣的說法　
都能成為理由我在這樣的愛情裡看見的　
是我們的軟弱

this is an old song, from ah-mei..
i just like it.
very have feel~
everything should be decide since the beginning but not wait until the very last moment,
if not, regret will be awaiting you ahead.
if you find you don love me, please tell me early so that both of us wont be suffering again.
i just cant say it out, becuse i lack of the courage,
and im used to your everything.

greedy

i felt im getting more greedy and greedy..
what i wan from you is more and more..
i gain my satisfaction even harder..

nonstop

Phew.. finished another hk drama again!
i think i really great.. can finish a drama in 3 days time. haha..
maybe im just too boring..
btw actually i have my legal assignment not done yet..
but then nvm la.. i just throw it aside..

last night i seemed to be a bit emotional..
i talked something that i don dare to you..
i dono what do you think in your heart when u received my sms,
cos u din give me even a word of reply..
but then nvm.. maybe it is better for it to left unknown..
because even until this moment,
i still don understand myself, what i want in this relationship..
the relationship seems to be cool off for quite a long time,
but then i stil don feel like let go.
am i too silly for this, maybe gua,
i have a feeling that we can go forever.
but sometimes the real world doesnt allow me to think that way.
i feel my warmth through another way rather than you again..
so what is this indicate??
you donwan to think, so i donwan to think also,
but will the problem solved by itself in this way ?
No.. right..
but what can i do..
im blocked outside of the door of your heart.
am i still the key holder to your heart, or you have taken it back and keep it to yourself..
it is always a raining day for these few days, well..
i miss you even more especially at night..
so what? nothing will change..
life stil goes on!
al still alive, and of cos i will be alive too.
sometimes i kinda pity with him..
he is just the victim of this polygamy game..
but then he fall too deep, until he cant pull himself out.
maybe we should ask him,
it is he cant let go,or he doesnt wan to let go..
isnt it sound the same like me? hahaa..
we are sharing the same characteristic..
everytime he wants to find me, he is scared.
scared of my no-reply..
scared of my coldness to him in my own sms..
and what i scare when i see you..
scared of i bother you too much.
scared that i put too much pressure on you..
all this because of fear..
and there is a feeling that he wont success in getting me to be his.
so is there still the same for me?
i will never be yours?
..............................
i dono why i type this post..
maybe it is hard to fully understand this post too..
it is just crapz..
again.. and again...
everything is turning in a cycle..
nonstop...
until the times reach its ends....

曾经拥有过，现在只能回忆

lately, i don have much feeling to blog..
feel kind of lazy..
im still in holiday mood i guess..
suppose to rest more during this holiday, but i slept even latter than school days..
every morning woke up in a kind of condition of blur~~
my mind is blank and i dono what to do...
Jessie called me quite a few times. well, talked to her for few hours at one night..
talked bout our past, and i found so many similiarity between us, especially in matters of love relationship.
Hahaz, im just walking on the same path as her now.. it is only that her pace is faster..
even her bf aso im the middleman~!!!
however, sometimes when the thing is past, u can only think back but u can never go through it once again.
Those crazy moment can only live inside heart..

曾经，是世界最残酷的诅咒，
我曾经开心过，我曾经年轻过，
曾经，这两个字，带来的意思，
好像永远都不会再发生了。

道理篇

刚看完一套戏， 叫“野蛮奶奶现代版”，
除了幽默风趣，松松身心，原来我也能从里面学到不少东西，
很多都是从现实生活中映射出来的，非常真实，不错不错！！
打个比方， 做人还是不要太过固执，地球是圆的，今天你高高在上，不代表你永远都会是高人一等，所以当你遇到不顺心的事时，要学会放下； 面对困难时，记得不要放弃，因为你永远不知道上天为你安排的是怎样的路，记得要遵守三个法则：面对，挑战，放下~
或许，说就是比做的容易，人往往都不会要走一条艰难的路，而选择了一条看起来比较顺坦的路，但是，想想，先苦后甜，这个道理，我们都懂吧?所以，咬紧牙关，很快就撑过去了，而我们的美梦就会实现了~~！！

但是，我现在很像放假哦~~不想读书~~！！
迷上了连续剧，死啦~~



never give up~
i know one day our dream will come true.
u are still in my dream..
^^