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曾经，很爱很爱一个人，

爱到以为能够放下所有，

不顾一切，只为在一起，

曾经一起编织的梦不断在脑海里播放，

同时间，这首歌更加能够牵动心里的涟漪。

如今，再次播放这首歌，心情已不再一样。

Total mess

現在我很幸福

他的手掌有種粗糙的體貼
他在我需要時候出現身邊
被你傷的那些 崩潰眼淚
多虧他無私的奉陪
哪天要是和你真的再見面
誰都不要再提醒那一段從前
有些事不面對 反而安心安全
你無權再動搖我的世界
現在我有了幸福 有人照顧 應該知足
你不像他 從不讓我哭
可是我越想投入 越是生疏 抱的再緊
依舊止不住那流失的溫度
現在我不停忙碌 不斷讓步 想看清楚
你不像他 把我當成全部
可是愛有時善良 有時殘酷 我要如何
愛他像愛你那樣義無反顧
不會提到最後和他的一切
面對不愛的人 我終於諒解了
曾經你用無言畫的句點

看开

有点用脑过度
所以现在很lag
有点看开了
考不好就算了
谁叫我临时抱佛脚
真的是佛主都不保佑

happy ending

I need something entertainment to cheer myself up,
and also to take myself out of the stress.
Unlike joce, I have no Donghae to look at, so  I can only go for drama/movie. (now i realise what an idol can do)
Even so, I have difficulty in searching what's nice to watch.
End up, I am so dissatisfied with all the dramas I watched and continue to be grumpy
That's explain why am I being here and start mumbling like a nanny. >.<
The dramas just being too sad, and I need some happy ending (but not silly ending) to relax.

I am feeling.....

A bit scared..

A bit tension...

A bit frustrated...

A bit horrified...

A bit terrified...

A bit overwhelmed...

just name it!

I have less than three weeks to go. 

I feel I am not ready for this yet. 

So many things left untouch..

Oh no!

feelings vs reality?

Most of the time, we have been poisoned by the word 'feelings'.Whenever there is a time we need to make a choice, there will be a voice saying that: "follow your heart/feelings" This lead to another question: what is your true feeling?

Have you ever think of this: what we felt might be what we chosen to feel. In other word, this means our cognitive brain dictates what our body want to feel. Eventually, it just blurred the line between emotional intelligence and cognitive intelligence. So when you talked about sixth sense, it actually evolved from our life experience and knowledge, just that you face the same situations for so many times until you become so 'intuitive' to know what you should do in the next step. This is what commonly called 'sixth sense' or 'feelings'. For example, when you did bad in your exam, your experience/culture/knowledge told you crying will sooth the pain. this lead you to cry whenever you face problem and you think this is your feelings without questioning much. Until one day when you stop crying and you feel there is nothing wrong with not crying, you started to question: maybe I was not even feeling want to cry whenever there is difficulty. Hence, you started to modify your so called 'feelings'.

So probably when you are facing a choices/dilemma, there is nothing wrong to decide using your rationale instead of 'feelings'. No doubt following your feeling will cause you to continue to stay in your comfort zone and lead to inner satisfaction. 

 

rambling

still have many things to read, but i just don feel like reading it.
time can you please walk slower so that i can catch up with my studies.
my brain just tend to turn slower than usual.
10/10 is 4th year anniversary with him. OMG!

心跳的感觉

机缘巧合之下，我看了一部动漫，关于男同性恋的动漫，这是一部爱情片，讲述两位男生的初恋，好不容易说出口的爱，以为能够从此在一起，没想到因为一个可笑的误会而不善而终，十年以后再次相遇却因忘怀不了十年之前的误会而徘徊着。明明有感觉且不敢面对，就这样拉拉扯扯的。
一口气看完了12集，可想而知它的剧情是多么地牵动人心，直到现在我的心跳还是很快，脑海里还是不断浮现他们的画面，虽然说结局两人并没有在一起，我想是两人的暧昧关系，那时远时近的感情让我怦然心动，真的太好看了，我好想重温旧梦，回到当初那懵然未觉的时候，只是单纯地为一个人所作所为心跳加速，脸红发烫。