不堪

最近,马来西亚的新闻源源不绝，
多数都属于negative的，我们的政府，真的那么腐败吗？
不说那笔，网上还流传一些短片，讥笑我们的律师在法庭上审问证人时出丑，
问题和思想完全不合逻辑，只懂得盲目的推翻专业证人给的口供，而且用英文和证人沟通就好像鸡同鸭讲，这样的律师形象，在我国已深入民心，让大家都称律师为'老鸭' (请翻译国文).
在国外，律师是一个受尊重的职业; 反之，回去就会被人歧视，被人认为是一些违背良心做人的烂人一个，赚得是肮脏钱，但是求学时经历的挣扎和付出的努力有人珍惜吗？读法律，真的以为随随便便就能考个HD,随随便便就有honours,随随便便背几个section就能上庭审问证人？有时，不听、不看、不问、不闻，是不是就能省下不少力气生气？唉~爱莫能助！试想想，外面有多少热爱国家的人没有尝试过闭门羹或者是‘贼喊抓贼’的心情？又有多少热血心肠的人被泼了千万桶的冷水~

懒

最近胃口不怎么好，不想煮饭，
或者煮的东西都不合胃口，
出去吃也都找不到满足感，
浪费钱之余，更有一种挫败的感觉 （叹气）
但是，肚子却不争气的饿了，
真的有时希望食物能从空中降落，
然后张大嘴巴就能吃了，好懒哦！

我不是真正的快樂

recession

have you ever heard of 家贫百事哀?
it simply express the importance of money. I think it would be fair to say that i am still lucky to be a student and i need not worry about my income. School fees paid, and allowances came in at the fixed time. i shouldn't have anything to complain about.

proof of slacking

i have this so called sunday-mood.
i do nothing. i slack around. i will rather move my table here and there or move my ass here and that, but not even look at the book. Well, to be precise, im willing to look at the book, but i just cant understand any single word written in there. My problem? yes. obviously.
tonight is sunday. what am i doing here? feeling guilty for not being able to finish a single tutorial question? not suppose to party out there and get myself drunk and drag myself into the house and just slam the whole body on the bed and here comes monday. the first day of the brand new week!
i fucking need money, pls. how much i wish i could go for some plastic surgery and then become super hot girl and then seduce any man who wish to feed me for my whole life. gosh. i must be having fever right now, because my mind spoiled. =p no free food in this real world, so do the getting-rich dream. everything just needs to depend on myself. to get better income, the only way is to use my brain. deng~

Sundays!

Weekends, are the day suppose i have plenty of time to do readings and done tutorial question.

However, i have wasted my Saturday by watching hk dramas. it is so addictive! gosh. sometimes i wish i have a stronger determination to stop it. Obviously i did not and the thing listed in my to-do list obviously none of them is being strike out. Fail! 

I have a 5000 words assignment on hand, urging me to start on my research soon (i think at least need 50-70 researches material but i have NONE right now). I have two tutorials question need to discuss on monday, ie less than 24 hours from now which i have nothing on my mind yet. I have also plenty of cases to study. Yet, im still blogging now and laughing to myself. What happen to myself? One day im going to scratch all my hair off my head and left with a bald head. Guess depression is already waving at me. I can already see the symptom. I blame the hormone make me so. 

Finally, finished the drama 'beauty-knows-no-pain'. It was kinda addictive when the plot brings my heart up and downs. However, i was really disappointed with the endings. Another lame ending from TVB again~ Haihz, i wish they can really think of some interesting ending but not leaving me clueless or with the response 'harr, finish d ar.. wth?' 

Independent or not independent?

Hari Merdeka is coming. Counting down the days, it left about 10 days....
Back in secondary school, the principal always instructed all the students and teachers need to celebrate this important day of malaysia for one month. What's the celebration event? there's gonna be colouring 'jalur gemilang' competition, poet competition, and all sort of exhibition that related to patriotism. Besides, all the students have to sing patriotic songs for the entire month. That was what happened back at Malaysia. What is the purpose? is this going to help to boost our patriotism?
From the news, malaysia govt is soon facing a financial crisis. They reduced subsidy, they reduced govt expenditure, and as a consequences inflation is everywhere. I wonder how the people is going to survive with the low income? Money seems important at this point of time. The salary is flat. Those who study economic will know a govt need to know how to handle their economy in order to improve the people's lifestyle. Im not going to make a political speech here. This is not my intention. What i want to ask is how much do we love our country???

tvb drama series

认同

突然发现，原来我很需要社会对我的肯定，
这不代表全世界，只需要那些曾经在我生命中占有一席地位的人，
是知心朋友也好，是我生命中的挚爱也好，就算只是一位萍水相逢的路人也好，

it's thursday again!

换个形象，换个心情 =)
眨下眼，这个星期又来到尾声了，
意思是说，功课越堆越多，再不努力就会把我窒息...
在网上看到一个蛮有教育意义的短片，诉说着80年代的新新一代如何面临人生中的抉择：

horoscope reading

You can intuitively sense that you are on the edge of change, which pushes your anxiety level higher.
You know that something big is about to happen, yet you aren't sure what it will be. Your path is not clear now, even if you are certain about what you want.
Your emotional needs won't likely be fully satisfied.
Instead of just wanting more, it's wiser to put things into perspective by appreciating what you already have.

long hair

Just realise i have a really long hair recently.
the hair grow to the extent that i cant handle it anymore. and im bored with it. too lazy to make alot of pattern on my hair. either tie it up or just letting it lie on my body.
wanna chop it off! or i should just stand for a while more and cut it back at malaysia.
then i come across a profile at fb again, seeing the girl with long, nice and curly hair.
then i wander, should i curl my hair? if yes, i have to keep it long.. *dilemma*

borink

I wish i have this magic power to turn whatever in my mind into words..
i wanna express what is in me, but i just hardly find a word that match with it,
instead i could only keep nodding my head whenever i browse through those pages that i cant agree more! or the most would be pressing the 'like' button.
since when, i have run out of words to express myself. >.<
life goes on as usual for these days.. uni>home>uni>home...
the reading list getting longer and longer because i chose to procrastinate most of the time, and then let my own guilty conscious kill me slowly.. just like now!
recently, i have been keep wandering about one same question: am i going to lead my life like now forever? doing the thing that i don't even know whether i m liking it or not for my entire life? it gives me stability and security but do i have any passion on it?
Despite that, the irony is i don't even bother to change my current life. this is what called 'padan muka'?? i felt im hungry for some emotional fulfillment, which i have no idea where to find it. books? readings? facebook is making me a little bit sick, it does not make me feel any warmth though. after all, im just facing a cold machine that knows how to process information and the funny part is i get any information relating to my friend updated through the the web page but not any closer distance.