recession

have you ever heard of 家贫百事哀?
it simply express the importance of money. I think it would be fair to say that i am still lucky to be a student and i need not worry about my income. School fees paid, and allowances came in at the fixed time. i shouldn't have anything to complain about.

HOWEVER (alert!), im still facing financial crisis. how pathetic am i ? I seriously have no idea where my money have gone. and im seriously jealous on those who work part-time while study overseas because they earned their own income and they afforded the high living expenses here. they get to enjoy more than i have. People always ask, where have you been in Melbourne? or which part of Australia have you been traveled? or just simply have you try out any nice restaurant at xxx? i really want to say, i have no money to enjoy all this! well, people sacrifice themselves to get to enjoy their life better, they work, they study, which is so much tiring as compared to me being a full-time student! i did look for job, just that all jobs available are miles away from my home put aside the ultimate question whether i will get chosen or not, add together with the travelling expenses and time i wasted, i just dont find it is worthy. Further, WHY DO I DO LAW OUT OF SO MANY SUBJECT? this area of academic just so time consuming (no doubt reading cases sometimes could be fun), but you need high concentration and energy to digest all the wordy pages. Does the additional income which guarantee me better life worth for an average result?
well, my result is not excellent, just an average grade among all the law students (who i would say they are crazy!). imagine i couldnt even obtain a higher grade than now without working, would my result drop even further when i started to commit myself in working and spend less time in attending lecture and self-preparation. nothing is impossible, why others can do it but i cant. so basically im finding excuse for myself to convince myself go/not go for a job.
Nevertheless, the numbers in my bank account just keep reducing from 3 digits to 2 digits then getting lesser and lesser, i  just cant stop myself from depressing. Sometimes, i even blame Australia for implementing debit card system because we can never feel the cash flow out of my bank account. The internet just make everything comes and go within a click and second, so do my money! *cry*
i have complained so many and i have been through so many round of self-conflict when i m still a student. imagine when i have step out from uni, and it is time for me to look for a job and starting to pay for anything, i cant even imagine how depressing would it be. How if i cant get in to those big big firm and get them hire me. What would i become in the future? Real-i-ty is such a cruel monster, it is eating me slowly and slowly. Greed and Needs are another two monster which is playing seesaw games with reality. why do human have endless needs but limited resources?