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I wish i have this magic power to turn whatever in my mind into words..
i wanna express what is in me, but i just hardly find a word that match with it,
instead i could only keep nodding my head whenever i browse through those pages that i cant agree more! or the most would be pressing the 'like' button.
since when, i have run out of words to express myself. >.<
life goes on as usual for these days.. uni>home>uni>home...
the reading list getting longer and longer because i chose to procrastinate most of the time, and then let my own guilty conscious kill me slowly.. just like now!
recently, i have been keep wandering about one same question: am i going to lead my life like now forever? doing the thing that i don't even know whether i m liking it or not for my entire life? it gives me stability and security but do i have any passion on it?
Despite that, the irony is i don't even bother to change my current life. this is what called 'padan muka'?? i felt im hungry for some emotional fulfillment, which i have no idea where to find it. books? readings? facebook is making me a little bit sick, it does not make me feel any warmth though. after all, im just facing a cold machine that knows how to process information and the funny part is i get any information relating to my friend updated through the the web page but not any closer distance.