After been coming here for more than one months,
finally i faced exam for the first time in my uni life, well, nothing to be happy for,
but atleast it chased away my slack-ness,atleast i m studying for it!
because of the kiasu-ness implant in my body as a scholar(i guess)
U JUST DONT WANT TO FAIL THE EXAM, for no matter what reason,
so you will basically take up the book u dump aside for such a long time and start reading,
atleast the result is im reading, no matter i really understand the content or not~!!
atleast my heart will feel much better, that i no longer become a "fei cai",
i still have some useful way, which is i can read.. and the time is spend worthwhile (hmm, it is a way to console myself)
then today is the day! yeah, the day of the exam,
maybe because of i have been off from the exam track for such a long time, i don quite use for the exam d, i cant write fast, i feel like my hand is cramping, which make me so difficult to write out the answer, wtf.. my handwritting is damn CACATed...
maybe because we used to write LONG answer, that why today i feel such an insecure because my answer is actually quite short, i think this is a kind of sickness d..
then.. im so wtf not used with the informal way of CLASS test..
can u imagine, while u are day dreaming or readying for the test, perhaps prayiing(of cos im not doing that) then out of sudden the invigilator will instrust: you can start writing d..then you will start read at the question, after u finish reading the question, u suddenly PEEP on the person in front of you actually finished the 1st question.. OMG..
i was so damn panicking because of her!!!!! then my mind turned blank.. so the lessont is never peep on others, and let ur concentration or mind flee away.. SOBS...
after finish the 50mins test, we handed up our paper, then.. we went out to the class.. (end)
really a release of sigh after the test, thought can realxx, too bad i have a continuation of 5 hours lecture, so i need to run to my lecture venue, which is soooooo tiring!!!!! then there is aa pop quiz for me again, so lucky that the test is actually INTRO to LEGAL question oni, which i almost learn all of them from SAM.. since the first time in my life, or since i came to monash, i really thankful for the legal knowledge i learnt at SAM. it helps a lot..
well, such a many bullshit, and i dono why im typing it out .. just for the sake of typing i guess,
because after the test, really feel like giving myself a break, not to study for tonight!! wahaha.. finding another excuses to slack again, poor cheng yah...
AND the another great news is that after such a long lecture and tiring day, TOMORROW IS WEDNESDAY. what so great about that? I HAVE NO LECTURE!! which is the happiest and should be celebrate with chaimpagne.. LOL..
today while i was on the contract law lecture, i peeped on another girl who sitting in front of me again.( hmm, well im not used to peep on ppl, just so happen today peep for twice! lol. i used to observe people instead. xD) she was sms-ing with her phone, then she typed "i-miss-you" and sent it out. well, it is not a weird thing to mention or strange thing either, it is just at that moment, i start to wondering, how long since i ever sent such a sms, simple but full with hearts..
how long since i miss someone badly which i used to when i was young? i need some fresh love i guess. i need to recall back the sweet feeling when you are on a date. the sweet and sour feels..the nervous the anxiety while waiting for someone sms. NOw my life seems to be so dull.. i need some refreshment. LOL... im not desperating.. i swear.. i just wish to find a sweet guy.. and fall in love with him.. ^^ (dreaming....sweet dreamssss....)
(p/s: my mom will slap me if she come to this page and ask me to study hard rather than day-dreaming) hahaha...
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