can i..?

study and love.
u chose study.
wise choice.
u are clever,
u always choose what is supposed to be the right one.
good.
i understand and i wont blame u.
maybe if i were u, i will be having the same choice
i shall be tolerance.
but do u know it is hard.
why i owes the one who being sacrificed.
try not to show u my negative emotion.
try to hide and try to run away.
but do i able to do that.
try not to think.
try not to care.
can i?
forever, still need how long to reach that stage.