i m convincing myself...

trial is going to kill me..
as it approaching me, i felt a stress and pressure on me...
i try to handle it with my best, bt sometime i still default to the little devil in my sub-concious.
i think postively, i think i could manage to finish it by today..
yeah i did, but i lost some part as well..
i donwan to let the pesmisticm to kill my positive ion.. as it doesnt help me in succeeding in anyway..
i had work out for one whole day, i think i lost most of my brain cell.
but i m telling myself, just few more days..
few more days later i will be free from this jail..
this parole period.. dammit..
then i can get free.. and celebrate raya, tho im not malays. hees..
im so tired right now.. tired psychologically..
and emotionally..
should i continue or slacking???
i chose slacking right now..
but i know i will be regretting tomorrow..
yet studying now actually not much helping me..
becos i cant even concentrated and focus...
so why not i get some relaxation and gain back my concentration..
huh.. sound convincing ya.. this is the sound of devil..
omg.. there are always conflicct between the rational and the wish..
but confident people owes know what they want to do is it not??
so i thhink im still lck of confident that why i could make up my decision..
come on baby, you are the best..
you can do it..
it is just a trial marrr..
not a big deal aso... as long as you understand every single part of your topic,
you had done your job..
tomorrow is just a test, testing your understanding level,
if there is extraordinary question, it is just not your luck,
doesnot mean you are not good is it not???
trial doesnot equate to the end of the world,
you still need to continue in pursuing your study..
after one week holiday, you still need to study for your final..
at the present time, trial is playing great important role, but after you go through it, what is trial
?? just a forecasting yor result in final, but do it badly doesnt mean you sure do bad in your final..
baby, think it in a positive way, maybe this test could reveal your weakness in every single subjecct, maybe it just exposed to you what you are lacking for siting in your final exam..
you can take this opportunity to improve yourself..and then you could even better in your final that what it supposed to be...
so come on, be a bit motivated, don be so depressing..
it never help you anyway.. you are still you..
as long as you belive in your own power, no matter what and no matter how, the thing will come to you by itself, without your realisation on how it comes to you...
so pray to god and do your best...
the rest leave it to others to decide...
over attached on one thing might result in the opposite effect..
so why dont you be a little bit detached and get a little bit surprise??
who knows.. miracle might happen... =D