wtf result

Again, another disappointment hit on me again..
well, it is nice to hear that " the higher expectation you put in, the more painful you will feel."
i think i really feel this at this moment,
i really thought i DID my best in the trial..
and i really ENJOYED my one week holiday..
however, the first day of school, is really a SHOCKING day for me..
i expect for 4 As and 1Bs..
end up im getting 2 As and 3Bs..
well, not so bad, at least i get a high B for those subject i expect to be an A..
but it is really damn wtf disappointing that i could see an A but could not reach it..
as if it is so near yet so far..
you could not understand how i feel right now..
after i had put in so many effort, why i could not get back wat i want..
it is so FRUSTRATING!!!!!
actually i do feel better now, after such a super tiring day...
i did not think so much over my stupid result again,
maybe it is not the end of my world, i still have another chance to fight over it...
i know where am i regardless what my result is..
but i know, a little part of my confidence over my final exam had been destroyed..
from being confidence to now lack of self-esteem...
what a drastic change...
my fear towards writing an essay.. is so much bothering me now..
i do not know how..
fall into deep depression again.......