intimidation

Have u ever feel intimidated when u are inside a small group??
i felt it when i was at my contract tutorial yesterday, well it wasn't that bad..
i felt so because i din do any preparation and i go for it, claps for me because of my courage.
of cos i think i get a zero for that because i din really participate..
well, nvm i still have alot of time.
but i tel myself i shall work hard right now, it is time for me to catch up instead of slacking over there. but i seriously damn hate melbourne la..
the weather here is freaking emotional, u know what do i mean? it becomes cold and hot suddenly without your knowledge, and u know what do best in the cold weather?
zzzzZZZZ.. sleeping! yeah, that why i sleep alot..
As compared to my pre-u life at taylors, although i sleep a lot that time, i think now i sleep even more, im so amazed with my own sleeping ability.. wtf! but i really feel the difficulty and reluctance in waking up when the alarm rang.. i cant imagine how am i going to be during winter.
today i skipped one hour lecture for my contract law A, well, it is not a bad thing because i know even i continue to sit inside the lecture hall, i wont be able to gain anything, so it actually makes no differences, anyhow, i still feel guilty so i compensate it by borrowing some contract reference books from library.. hehe, what a clever move ya to excuse myself from escaping the lecture, but i seriously think sometimes it is better for me to read the material rather than listening to the lecturer, perhaps, im not good in listening that why i say so, of cos my reading is aso sucks..
i suppose to finish my marketing tutorial exercise today so that i could prepare for my criminal law tutorial tommorrow.. really don dare to walk into the tutorial room without any preparation!! damn scary man~!! it is so much differences between a cosmos student with a law student!! don mean to say their brain capacity/capability, i mean law student really love to talk, or give opinion in other words, so in order to gain your participations mark, u need to snatch your chance!! no one will ever give you chance to talk if u shy shy there... fuck!
i feel so sleepy.. again?!!!!!!!
but i have to stay awake, so that i can finish my undone assignment..
i started to regret..
regret of having honey moon for the first few weeks...
now so many things cramp together... am i going to finish it???