a lil updates

abandone this blog for quite a period of time,
everytime thinking of posting a post,
the mind goes blank.
it is not because the life has gone tasteless (to some extent, it is)
instead it is because of the rapid change in the flow of mood
it went ups and downs almost every second
just like the weather in melbourne..
you thought it will be a sunny day,
end up it turn out to be isolated shower,
until u have to keep running on the street to find a shelter before you got yourself frozen
quite stressed out for this period, to the extent that i feel i cant take it anymore..
hardly can breathe and think..
amazed to the ability of human, they can expand their power all the time.
after a sleep, the memory tend to reset and adjust to the optimum level that u most comfortable with.
and there go a new day! brightful and hopeful..
until an event crushed into your mind and start pushing ur pressure to the max..
until u pass out..
the process then repeat by itself...
so many things listed in the to-do list,
none of them being crossed out yet..
all are in pending status, tmd, i hate this..
have a major assignment on hand which determine my fail/pass grade,
then tonnes of reading going on..
wonder why i never bother to look at them, only until the exam is crawling to my back?
urgh.. is really in great dilemma whether focus on the assignment (40%)
or should just revising..
yeah, perhaps both of them can be conducted simultaneously,
but it is not tat easy..
i spent 3 hours and i just manage to squeeze 380 words, wtf..
and i have 2500 words more to go.. im dying.
perhaps i should use the remaining time to build myself a grave..
ok, done with depression mode,
ppl might just get boring with that depressed tone, ( i realised this )
it makes life grey,
and making the life grey wont help in overcoming the problem..
so just make it black or white. LOL.
maybe im not so depressed in real person. TALK to me rather than READ me.