Thursday, December 31

A day out

Today went out to watch 'Alvin and the Chipmunks 2'.
the movie was nice. Just we are too late, therefore we got a front seat, which make me uncomfortable. The neck is tired.
After the movie, we sat down at MacDonald and talked for hours.
Wow, it was long. And unexpected too.
This guy actually have a feeling on me. But he cant get me.
I always feel sorry and guilt. Because he had put in so many effort.
What i know bout him is only he loves me.
Yet, I have a totally different perspective on him. I think i understand more about how a guy thinks?
I always thought he doesnt understand love, but only obses with a girl he cant get.
I thought it is his egoism that make him cant move on.
The truth is, im wrong.
We talked, we laughed, we had fun.
I used to feel heavy talking with him, because he will be telling me how much he wanted me, and i will just speechless because i knew i could never reply his love. I have someone else already.
But today, for the first time, we talk like a friend. We even talk about our no-ending-relationship in a very amicable atmosphere.
Also, we share what we fear of in a relationship.
When i talked him my problem in my current relationship, he even advise me with some useful suggestion. I think too much, he said. and because i think too much, it makes the guy run away, He said it again. I can only smile. Because i know it is so true.
He ask me to think less. I say i couldnt because im too free. LOL.
I said i argued with my bf recently. He say, it is nothing to sad about an argument. Because argument improve our understanding. Minor argument helps the couple to understand their problem once at a time. If we don't argue, but put everything in our heart. Wait for the day when one party couldnt stand anymore, the argument would be something irreversible and the relationship would come to the end. So he say somtimes argument is just a way to express your unhappiness.
My reaction was: "WOW, how come he knew to say such thing?" I didnt expect this from him.
Then i talked bout my insecureness in relationship. I gave a metaphor. and it was funny. I said girl is just like a carrot hang in front of a donkey. A donkey would use up all its effort to chase the carrot. But it got the carrot and eaten it, the carrot no longer have any value. It will just become a piece of shit and being left behind. The donkey could just chase after another carrot, but the initial carrot had become a shit and no one would like to have it. I just being traumatized to be in a relationship sometimes because when u close ur heart, the guy wil just try all the way to get into it. But when u finally put down ur guard and let him enter, he would just take it for granted, some even laugh at ur stupidness for being fooled. =S
i know this couldnt apply to every guys. Definately, there will be some exception. It is just too common for these kind of things to happen.

2 comments:

jw said...

isit the indian guy!!! what's his name d lol.

Yah Yah said...

mana ada indian guy la.. deng!!!! >.<