self doubt

Went to MASCA annual debate yesterday
just want to give some moral support to my dearest housemate, sri as well as Julie.
Their argument was really good...it really provokes my emotion and wanna stand up and clap for them. GOOD JOB everyone!!!
kinda convinved that they are going to win one, too bad the result is totally unexpected!!!! personally feeling disappointed. so much of disappointment. because they really did a good job.
ahhh.. it is always unfair in this world.
On the way back home, the issue just cant get erase from my mind. well it doesnt matter here. im not going to make any additional point about that. Lol.
however, another thing that come into my mind yesterday is about myself. wholly bout myself.
keep wandering what could i actually do and where is my potential? look at my friends, they are fighting for their own dream now. they know what they want in their life and they are directing to it now.
But look at me, everyday feeels the same. i don have any improvement. what do i want in my life? i felt so pathetic with myself. even im looking for my own strength i couldnt find one. if i need to introduce myself and talk about my strength, i cant even find one. man, this is not even talking about my weakneses! it is nothing to be ashamed, but why am i find it so hard to talk about. some people good at analytical thinking, some people good at desribing, some people good at acting, some people good with people, so many kinds of people exist in this world, why am i not part of them. where do i stand? when people look at me at first sight, without knowing me in person, what kind of image do i potray?
I find studying law is difficult.why?? ok.. probably law is really hard. but some people can just take it easy and face it positively. they are so passionate with the subject and get fascinated each time they learnt about new law principle. Well, i admit reading case law is fun sometimes, it is kinda cool when you go through it in your pleisure time. but...most of the time i just find it frustrating and i just feel like giving up. at that time, the question of whether im suitable for law just popped out. im not either good in being analytical. i dont distinguish the word negligent and reckless that much. for me, they basically mean the same thing. why so susah susah go and differentiate and bring trouble? haha. :p
well, if i really not suitable with law, then what will be i doing then given i have the time machine and able to reverse the time? probably accounting? but do i have the passion with accounting? would i be saying give up too when i really take up accounting? science used to be a no-no for me that never come across my mind. but how if im doing engineering now, what will happen? i have a strong feeling that i will be thinking the same like the situation i be with now.
conclusion, it is nothing wrong with studying law. it is my problem. i should really learn how to appreciate present and handle stress. ahhhhhhhhhh