I am back

It has been a while since I am here, hasn't it?

How's everyone? I miss you all. 

It is December again, the very last month of 2012. so I guess everyone should live this month till their fullest. God knows how long we can stay alive.

Sorry for not updating but I assure you nothing special happen in my life. I did not travel to unique place, I am stuck with the same person, and I suppose I am still the very same me, maybe a little bit more childish/mature? You wonder, how childish and mature can be mutually inclusive, yes they are not, I guess some part of me are more childish and some part of me has become more mature.

It is the time of crossroad again, I felt like I am back to the time of SPM, when I need to choose which path to be taken. I hope I would not regret for any decision I have made. I came to learn that we can't always get what we wanted in life, so the best way would to take what is offered to me and make the best out of it. I should learn to have faith that in whatever I do, I will succeed. 

Growing up, really is not an easy task. It requires courage, braveness and confidence. I wish I could just implant those into me right away just like a vaccine injection. 

I am not sure why I am back to this place again. This place is so emotional and I have been shutting down my emotional part when I have more important thing to do with, and now when I left with nothing to do but myself, I revisit this place and indulge myself in the sea of emotion, I opened the heart and let it felt all the words that flow from here. It always at this point of time, when I feel myself are vulnerable, weak and sensitive, which is not a good thing but it is exclusive and intimate. However, after some time has passed and I started to look back, it feels like I am connecting to myself again. Whenever I thought I moved on and grow, it is actually just an illusion.