Do u agree,
human's action is lead by feelings? or congitive?
u think first then u act?
or u feel first then u act?
or u are actually the one act without involving any thinking process.

Hate when the emotion pull aways all my thinking,
i can feel my soul is falling in the darkest side of the world.
I have to pull it back through my rational.
The feeling is good.
atleast i am myself at that moment.
Im not the one you want me to be.
or wat society hope me to be.

Why do everyone judging others who live in the same society?
it is if i do not ive up to your expectation, it is consider a FAIL?
The answer could be negative.
Yet, u cant control your mind to comply with others' standard!
and then u start forcing yourself to do wat u initially don like.
You could insist on your own principle as well,
there is no such a need for you to comply if you think you dont,
just that you will be label as "weirdo" , "loner", etc etc

when someone ask you whether you are a social person or not,
what ground would ur answer based ?
the amount of friend? the amount you hang out with friends?
or the amount of text message you received in your inbox?
if none of this sound relevant to you,
then sorry, you are a introvert!


despite that,
human are meant to stay in a group.
that why friends do make us feel good.
without them, im nothing now!!
i will be a piece of shit without soul~
that why, im missing you all like hell now!!!!

想念，
那爱情降临的感觉；
那心怦怦狂跳的感觉；
那脸红的感觉；
然后，
才发现我已失去了当时的纯真，
被现实洗礼了的心，
不再存有希望，
不再懵懂，
不再梦想，
但是，
原来我还是渴望爱情~



夜深了，
想找个人闲聊，
才发现，
电话簿里的电话，
少的可怜...

sobs~

Having been lazy for the weekends..
my weekends is seriously a long weekends.. start from thursday and end at sunday..
LONG enough huh..
but i did nothing..
i m not complaining.
i knew i sleep too much and eat too much!!
tat y i bertaubat d..
i was about to study when i woke up this morning
maybe it is last minute effect
when i see so many things left undone on my desk...
so it just inspired me to do some work..
maybe some reading is enough than letting my mind turn blank..
but damn it.
the book is seriously hard to dihadamkan...(ie digest)
make my head turn dizzy, as if i can see alot of stars turning above my head..
then... feel like vomitting..
all sort of uncomfotable!! haih..
i had devoted 100% of my attention..
come on la.. why is it so limited..
and then stupid marketing tute. what sort of question so stupid and hard derr..
suddenly felt law studies is better.. T.T
easier to understand rather than all the weird weird term..

爱情。面包。现实

面包与爱情的问题，
想必应该是很普遍了，
我一直以为，
我会选面包，
因为我想，我应该不会被爱情冲昏头，
但是，我现在认为我应该是选择爱情，
有了爱情滋润，做东西应该比较有冲劲
想当然而，面包也就顺手可得
但是，若爱情不顺利，
那么就什么也没有了~

哭包记

神经质的我，
今天又发神经了
无端端的，和你又吵架了
为此，还逃课了呢~
冷战期间，
躲在图书馆里，出其不意的，
竟然还能扫描2-3页的contract
三小时过了，
原以为气消了，
没想到，笨蛋就是笨蛋！
搞得我又一肚子火，
索性一个人走路回家，
岂知，偏偏遇上下雨天，
被雨淋湿的泥土
特别滑
愤怒之下，想也没想，就跨大步踩向湿泥土中
结果就BANG!!
滑到了..还要在众目睽睽之下~没脸咯！真是衰啊！
原本就不好的心情，
加上下雨天，和摔跤，
根本就是雪上加霜~
回家的路上，
除了我的哽咽之外，
仿佛没了其他声音，
回到家，躺在床上继续的大哭，
真的是哭到眼睛肿了，
脸又肿，整粒哭包一样
罪魁祸首的你，
竟然还敢笑我是粒包~
今天，真是倒霉透顶...

发牢骚

想真的，
我现在的日子没什么不好的，
蛮写意的，轻轻松松就过了一天，
当然，排除那些排山倒海的功课，
毕竟做学生的日子，
比起日后在社会上求生的日子，
的确来的更加无忧无虑~~
但是，感觉上就是少了些实在感，
总觉得自己与一块废材没什么分别
除了daily routine, 生活里真的找不到一丝色彩..
可能，不是法律难读，
而是读法律的人难搞
law school 里，很容易就spot到loner..
各自做各自的东东，
完全忽略了四周围的人，事，物...
刹那间，领取到自己仿佛也变成他们的一分子..
好想念，以前在学院，
一大班人，叽叽喳喳的，
一起出去逛街，吃饭，看戏..
享受那成为一伙人的一分子..
明知道，有时争执，误会，绯闻，冷战是无可避免，
那种种阻碍和困难，让人好讨厌， 很想逃！
但一旦冰释前嫌，那回忆变得更加美好，
更加凸现大家的uniqueness!
可能，有人会说，
这很简单嘛..
大学里，那么多社团，随便参加就有了嘛，
干吗那么烦~
但是，有些东西就是要将缘分的..
有些东西，就是讲click不click的
和heart! 哈~

我感冒了

I'm still having my usual life.
Nothing much different obviously..
Semester 2 begins since last two weeks ago..
i actually praying that i will act differently towards my studies..
means i will pay more attention and effort on it...
too bad i didnt really make them come true..
believe or not, i slept until 1 pm, then i continue to sleep again at 3 to 6!
wtf..
im getting sick, yeah, having some sort of running nose,
there is always liquid coming out from my nose. DAMN!!
whenever i wipe on my nose, there will be some sticky, smooth liquid. xD
Right now, i was actually hoping for a job..
sent out quite a few Resume, but no response at all..
sadly to say, it is expected..who ask me no experience at all.. and im neither PR or citizen..
unfair? yea, it is and it always happen..
maybe i should just volunteering myself to do some FOC job..
but even volunteer, aso there will be so many requirement..
ah dei dei.. +.+
i was thinking, since im not managing my time well, perhaps i can use the time to earn some money.. HOHOHO..
money is so attractive man~!!!
Frankly speaking, i spent alot last holiday because of shopping..
now looking at them, i felt kind of waste!! arrghh..
lately cant resist impulse buying tat happen during my shopping....
and my money just fly away..~.~
the number in my account dropping dramatically..
ironically, i felt some sort of happiness gain from my shopping..
yerr, i donwan to become shopaholic..aiya, but why so many sales going on!!!!! hahaha..
Recently, getting kinda bad tempered le..
quite annoyed to looking some one walking in front of my eyes..
sigh!! i know 此地不宜久留.. and eventually looking some solution..
quite scary of myself for having such evil thoughts..
it is a sin! and i wish to wash it away..
我不想，成为现实生活中的手下败将，
我想要找回内心的我，
但是，为什么我遇到的人，
都让我觉得他们都是‘面具人’
这是一种奢望吗？
还是，现实的残酷，
逼得人类不再愿意表现他们真诚的一面

Tuesday Blue

i dono why, everytime come to tuesday,
i feel some sort of insecureness...
i need lots and lots of care and love right now..
arrrhhhh~~

1st day of suffering

Today is my first day of university...
Lecture start at 2pm, so i still able to sleep like a baby in the morning, without worrying about anything else..
Somemore, the lecture today is Research and Writing..
which is not so much about law..
who knows, it is totally out of expectation, this course is designed to teach u about how to become a GOOD lawyer..
and the lecturer emphasizing that law field is kinda competitive..
well well well, i know that since the first day i step into law school..
none of them look friendly to me, instead they are passing me a message that we can never be friends, but competitors..
we are fighting over a limited space..
sobs.. and all the quality mentioned, i don think i have one..
but what is my own attributes then?
and hor, the 1st day of uni, the 1st lecture,
u know what the hell the lecturer ask us to do?
write an essay entitle "does the law meeting the community's expectation?" at a length of approx 250 words... wtf..
after about one month of stop writing, i need to write an essay in 15 mins time???
arghhh.. it kills me!! but then just simply write la since it is not in assessment..
going back to uni, sometimes seem to be exciting, yet it can be stressful~
dono why, since school start, i felt hungry very fast and sleepy...
is this so called start-school-symptom? haha.!

burfday~

today is my special day..
the day i born!
which means im turning into 20th by today..
bye bye to my 10th life...
我不想长大~
but no matter how reluctant is me, it is just a fact. haha..
and like what adidah told me,
age is just a number, nvm~! (acting very 潇洒)
the day of this year,
seem to be very usual,
hang out with lum and jocelyn at city..
went for a walk and shopping..
no special event..
yet, still feeel so warm with their companion,
together with lots and lots of birthday wishes,
start from phone sms, to phone call then facebook wishes!!
not much present received though..
but thanks to joyce for her perfume, really sweet~
then aso jiamin, jiawen, maggie and more for the unexpected birthday song far from adelaide!!!
it is really touching... oh my dear old housemate with an unexpected MAGIIE!! haha...
thanks thanks thanksss..
world cant describe how grateful is my feeling now..
maybe the most sincere wishes is the most precious thing afterall....
my birthday is going to end.... sigh~