Endless Problems..

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tonight, once again, happens a lot of things..
and i dono why must be saturday night is the worst night!!
sure all the friends problem come to me... what can i say now, is i really have no mood to do all these!!
ivy msn-ed me just now, and she told me that she is really disappointed with julie, well..
becos she thinks that julie backstabbed her,
she thinks julie as a real devil edi..
and she told she is no more friends with julie, just like how me and mayker..
well, i dono how to say, i was in the middle again.. WHY!!
i hate all these conflicts come to me.
and the most shit things is, i will get moody of these problems..
although this time, ivy,and lum seemed to be calm, what shock me is that lum even is the one who can think rationally and analysis the whole incident..
but then their problem is bothering my mind right now, never before, i met these kind of problems in friendship, never ever be so serious like now..
J8, really separated.. scattered all around...
is this a good thing? (in the process to think positively)...
maybe the good thing is that everyone can mix in the group they are comfortable with, and no more bond to each other with some invisible kind of 'friends rule'.. everyone can be themselves in their group.. no need to mask themselve anymore...
chinese proverbs said that alike people mix together, so is that i will become like julie and lum if i continue to mix with them, if i could be as clever as them, i really don mind one, but then will my thinking think in their ways?? NO.. i donwan that, it will be too extreme for me, maybe i should learn ways to get my stand strong but not until a level called 'stubborn' and 'big headed'... perhaps three of us will influence each other in some ways, which lead us to better person..
for example, they will think in a more considerate ways.. and i will not be that soft again.. learn to be stronger, etc..
hmm, think in this way make me feel nicer, good!
but really a bit sad.. actually we are a whole big bunch of friends who came from different culture and different background.. how sweet is it to form a big family with that, we can learn different things from each other, however, becos of diferences in thinking and attitude and the most important is lack of tolerance, we are not able to stand with each other already and we are now separated!!! *sigh* any medicine can cure this? i don dare to put hope anymore.
Just let it be, as both side of them have their own stand and their own thinking ways as well as their theory of friendship, what can i do? nothing can help.. it can oni decide by the god..
Dear lord, please bless the friendship of J8. All the arguments sources from little misunderstanding.. Please give them time to make clear for everything... and one more time to reunion!!! A-men..

A letter to Friendship that existed long time ago and passed away:
i really missed those time, we have fun and joke together.. the time we realy put trust on each other, and the devil of confliction have not appear and disturb u.. i really appreciate every friendship i have..
hope this broken frienship can go through the test of time.
and i know once we go through the hard time, we will be reunion again and be friends forever!!!
ivy said she will still treat me as fren altho i will be friend with julie, but i know no matter what, the scars are owes there.. so GOD, pls bless us!!
eliminate all the misunderstandings and restart the frienship into its starting point...
we have learnt our lessons....we will grow after this...
please come back to me again..Thank you..