im devil..

today really not a good day for me i guess..early early morning wake up, edi saw a bitch sitting down in living room bermesra-mesraan with her own 'ex'..how much i hope my eyes are blind at that time so that i wont see such an annoying scene!!need to wash eyes after this edi.. hahax..!
i know i sound like a devil now, cos my mood is totally in downturn!!
besides that bitch thing, another guy is also making me mad...stupid lum kok huat, fuck off larr. u think u very great is it?? i swear im going to win for this time.. i m not letting u to control my emotion again... u wanna let go, right? im so impress by hearing u wan to do so.. and are u expecting me to say something i need you?? don ever dream larrr.. it will be never happen again.. i admit that i need your help in study, but then doesnt mean i cant survive at all if withour ur helping.. i wont hold u becos of this reason, i don need u at all in my life. u cant give me anything!!! if u are betting with me this time, i will guaranterr u will lost.. even though i failed in my study, that oni prove im bad and im not qualifying as a scholarr.. i don need your sympathy towards me! hnngh..
i will prove to u i can do it by myself.. although im not as smart as u, but then i will show u that i get this scholarship with my own qualification but not with luck.. from this moment onwards, u have nothing to do with me, and i think u have nothing to do with my stuff as well. don ever ask me anything regards my personal things.. im gonna totally eliminate myself from u... but i still have some study groups with u.. hmm! nvm.. i will minimise the chance to keep contact wit you.. FUCK OFF!! i hate all the guys in my life.. u all are so bitchy fucking asshole.. besides sex, watelse u all know how to think???don love me at the first place if u cant take it.. i have warned u, dont i? it is your choice to love me, i din hold a gun and force u to do so, if end up u don get wat u want, don put the blame on me!! damn u!it is u urself make ur life suffer but not me.. im hating to take all the blame edi.. on the other hand, u shall thank me becos i taught u another lesson of life which is so precious to u... im now satisfied with my love life, i have one hubby name eagle who love me so much and i love her too. get away from mylife and never come to me again..
alright, baby, i know when u are reading this, u will get kind of shock, how come ur baby become a tigress!! haha.. don scare larr.. im just expressing some kind of thoughts which i will neve dare to say out.. i can oni release it here.. and now i feel so much better.. phewww~!! hehe.. i really love u de o ...
i have told u right, i don mind the gender of my love partner as long as they are loving me then enough..what can i say is oni sorry for those guys who appear too much latter from u.. u have grabbed my heart since the 1st time and now u have locked it somemore.. it has no ways to run away from u again and it will stick to u all the time o!!!! don abuse it oh. hehe.. last time i do feel bad by rejecting them and of cos, now i do feel kind of regret for losing such a good teacher.. but then, nothing is perfect in this world, if he doesnt like me in the 1st place, i think he wont willing to give out so much to me also.. so i did pay for the prices of this lesson.. and i should not be feeling sorry again.. becos there is always fair in this world, u must be giving out something oni u can get something in return.. since now im refuse to give out my care and love to him anymore, i think it is fair for him to take his care and love back as well..
i din blame him after all..becos he is the victim in this case, he gain nothing at last besides the oni memories.. while i gain ur love and i m so sure that im loving u so much right now. maybe he is right, i will not change again in loving you. well, im not just say say oh.. im proving to u right??
aldane and lum, i kicked both of them out of my life edi.. im gonna love u with my solely heart!!! *winks*
now is the time of 12.15 pm, it is afternoon edi, and i ate nothing lerr..too kit dong until don realise the feeling of hungry.. i have nothing to eat o.. want baby cook for me!! hehehe... im now working hard in my math o.. guai ma?hehe.. i have make this blog private lor.. and u are the oni reader.. wonder should i add jia wen.. ?? but i wish u are the oni one who can see my true heart le..