lost..

im sad for this lonely night..
many things are seemed to be happened in one shot..
until i m not manage to cope with all of them..
i had try all my best..
to have the best solution..
if this is what the god wanna give me, then i can only accept it..
tears , had been drop off from my eyes,
but it is not meant to solve the problem..
it is just make me feel better is some ways..
however, it is not really work for tonight..
undeniably, tears are still have some kind of magic to chase away the gloomy cloud in my heart..
but it is not enough. i need more..
used to have many friends before this, and now i feel so much fed up with it.
why is everyone masking..
im so tired in this war.. im going to surrender..
if u wan me die, alright.. shoot me now..
im not going to take any action anymore.
my heart is dead..
frienship? which i value so much is now a rubbish in J8...
it is just a tool to achieve their wishes and goal..
im now alone..
living alone..
and deep inside my heart is actually
yelling and desperate for a true friendship...
i wanna run away from this place,
however, im locked in this
big dark hole of cage..
which i can see no end of it..
no one can release me out of it..
will i lost myself..
i...am.... lost....