me heart is dead...

am i making a mistake again?
i feel so silly and stupid..
i went to residence center and request to move out and change unit...
just that simple, it is only my own personal stuff..
but i dono it could such a big impact to so many people..
and then mk find me to settle..
of cos, im not the one who talk the most,
it will be lum and julie.. to be my legal representative again..
to defend..
i really not intend to harm anyone.. i just wan to find a good place to rest on..
not so pressure by facing all the scholars everyday..
furthermore, i find myself cant stand her any longer..
tat y i wanna move out before there is any explosion.. but then..
now i seemed to be wrong again..
it makes the explosion earlier than what it should be..
im now lost of idea again..
actually i wanna hold on my decision already..
but then, maybe solve the problem will be the best way..
that why i look for the residence center..
who knows, it is shit man.. it is not making thing better but then make it worse..
until there is another bigger misunderstanding!!
they tot i wanna go complain.. wth larr.. what for i wanna go complain u..
im not tat kind of ppl..
i bu shuang u ..
but then after a while im just fine.. i will ignore it and continue to live on..
but then my patience has my own limit, i know there is gonna to be a maximum point for it..
that y...
i wanna find another way to solve it..
who knows...
i made the wrong decision..
i m sorry.. mayker.
maybe u cant see this post, but then im sorry..
sigh..
my heart is dead right now..
frienship..
i used to get it easily.. but now it seems to be so hard ya..
everything seems to be so fake right now..
i wanna run away altho i know this is the most stupid thing..
but then maybe this is the best for me...
i wish i have a wing..
fly away from all this nasty things..
i wish i have no heart..
stop feeling the pain and suffer...
i miss my old days. seriously..
i wanna recall the warmth of frienship again..
who can give it back to me.. instead of all the cold bloody...