purely crapz..

the relationship has become more and more tense..
it just like a rubber band, it had been pulled till its maximum,
if u pull it a little bit, it will *plarggh* and break into two...
wat kind of fragile thing ya..
im now listening to sad song..
it makes my heart fall into the deep black hole again..
my heart is so hurt right now..
am i changed?
i don think i have changed.
but why do u say i changed?
im still the same..
it is just ur eyes being covered by dust until u din see my true heart..
until u see all the people are bad for u..
no one is good anymore...
well..she is not around for tonight..
and i could have a secure private space..
to calm my heart and heal my scar...
studying.. wat i can do now is oni study..
study study!! so that my mind will not think of any nonsense else..
besides study, nothing else i guess..
sigh...
this frienship really bother me for quite a time edi..
im soooo tired..
my soul, my mind..
i love u, friends.
who have supported me for this long...
altho u all just supported me behind..
but i appreciated it..
for those who think me as shit..
then im sorry..
i gonna say bye bye..
it is time for let me to get rid of all the troubles..

i pray to god tonight, pls end the war..
pls bring me out from all these things..
let me stand out of the circle..
im no more part of them.. since long time ago..
im now alone...
but then i think there will be still frens out thr for me..
jw right? haha. felix right!! LOL...
ok.. i no more depress..
im fine! just fine!!!
i will be alright after wake up..
night..........
zzzzz