well.. i took the test..

Psytopic分析：您的性格类型是“ESFJ”(外向+实感+情感+判断)
有爱心、有责任心、合作。希望周边的环境温馨而和谐，并为此果断地营造这样的环境。喜欢和他人一起精确并及时地完成任务。忠诚，即使在细微地事情上也如此。能体察到他人在日常生活中的所需并竭尽全力帮助。希 望自己和自己的所为能受到他人的认可和赏识。 ESFJ型的人通过直接的行动和合作积极地以真实、实际的方法帮助别人。他们友好、富有同情心和责任感。 ESFJ型的人把他们同别人的关系放在十分重要的位置，所以他们往往具有和睦的人际关系，并且通过很大的努力以 获得和维持这种关系。事实上，他们常常理想化自己欣赏的人或物。ESFJ型的人往往对自己以及自己的成绩十分欣赏，因而他们对于批评或者别人的漠视很敏感。通常他们很果断，表达自己的坚定的主张，乐于事情能很快 得到解决。 ESFJ型的人很现实，他们讲求实际、实事求是和安排有序。他们参与并能记住重要的事情和细节，乐于别人也能对自己的事情很确信。他们在自己的个人经历或在他们所信赖之人的经验之上制定计划或得出见解 。他们知道并参与周围的物质世界，并喜欢具有主动性和创造性。 ESFJ型的人十分小心谨慎，也非常传统化，因而他们能恪守自己的责任与承诺。他们支持现存制度，往往是委员会或组织机构中积极主动和乐于合作的成员 ，他们重视并能保持很好的社交关系。他们不辞劳苦地帮助他人，尤其在遇到困难或取得成功时，他们都很积极活跃。
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em.. chun ma? my dear felix. hahaha!!!

my love.

the furthest distance is that you never realise my love to you when i m just in front of you.
our distance is just so near, yet u don understand me..
there is only one thing left to tell you.
u can live without me..
u made me a woman for loving me, and i appreciated it..
whenever you feel unsure, scare and complete lost your faith,
please look for yourself through my eyes.
u changed me. with your love, i truly become a woman.
thanks for your love.
you made my life.
but im just one chapter of your life.
u still have a long way to go my dear..
don afraid..
just go on..

home

i feel so much comfortable now..
facing my parents and siblings,
everything surround me give me a feeling named HOME.
this is my home.
a place filled with warmth..
whenever i have problem, this is always the place for me to release feelings..
they are my supports..
and i love them..
i don feel like leaving anymore..
i don wan to leave them..
i don feel like going back to kl--the hostel that full with cold, wall, stress but nothing else more than that...
although the life here less excitement, but nvm..
i rather exchange it with myself..
atleast i can be myself.. rather being a machine...

unforgettable moment..

Last night went out with jessie, terrence, cai yan and also renes.
went to upper star..thought going out for a while.
who knows, in a short while, the clock is showing 12 o clock.
so i went home at 1 am..
my god.. luckily my dad din scold me.. haha..
thought wanna wake up early to help my mum out der.
who knows, i came home so late, and of cos i sleep until very late lor.. haih..
feeel a bit guilty .. haha.
but had a bit of fun last night, cos tried out something that not suppose to taste. hahaa...
sshh.. i m not going to tell.. hahaa...

happy holiday..

Back..
finally landed the land of kk.
feel so familiar with the air..
and all the building!! yes.. im back to my home again..
with no any worries, conflicts, competitions.
what in here is only peace. a peaceful life.
i wan to get a good rest in this holiday.

time wont wait for u

study study study ..
one whole day study..
not sien de mer??
haha.. today im quite relaxing and i dono understand why..
i eat sleep shit then flip a bit of the lecture note.
watching movie on the tv and fool around with frens..
one day gone~
wow..so fast. haha...

can i..?

study and love.
u chose study.
wise choice.
u are clever,
u always choose what is supposed to be the right one.
good.
i understand and i wont blame u.
maybe if i were u, i will be having the same choice
i shall be tolerance.
but do u know it is hard.
why i owes the one who being sacrificed.
try not to show u my negative emotion.
try to hide and try to run away.
but do i able to do that.
try not to think.
try not to care.
can i?
forever, still need how long to reach that stage.

Tired Mind..

Saturday flee from my sight again.. jus through the slip of my finger..
One day of revision time had come to the end.
Ask myself, how much has i study? do i get all of them into my mind..
Too late to study right now.. it is considered as last minute work.
my mind has its own limit. i cant put any more into it.
So what i can do is only-- waiting to sentence for dealth penalty.
Ahakz. ms prem just said the mid term not big deal so no need to die for it.
and right here, im yelling that i gonna die..!!
say is always easier than make it into action..
What lingering beside my ears now is that:
As a scholars we need to bear with higher expectation..
if we cant, we should not accept the scholarship in the first place.
we are now using the money of tax payers.
so we should appreciate it!! never give it up.
if we failed to hit the target that set for us,
we shall pay them back..
(Ms Yeap and Ms Cheryln 2008)
all sorts and tonned of theories ring non-stop beside my ears, urging me to take out the book and revise once again.
SO that i wont fail the expectation of all people...
STRESS AR!!!!!!! PEOPLE!!!!!

going back in one week time. yeah yeah..
wonder should i pack my luggage now
as this is the only free time i have.
but im not in the mood.
im tense in preparing for my exam...
*conflict*

changes

suddenly my perception all changed.
what she sais sounds right too.
she said, passing your TER and get into an australian university, that will be a good enough target.
what for stress yourself so much by getting into top university and being a top student.
WHOA, it is really the first time i heard this kind of thing.
what i get usually will be aim high, be a bit more ambitious then you will be successful..
but this is really a different version of idea...
that makes me slack now.. not in the mood to prepare for my mid term..
but i know i will regret at the day!!

emotion..

i think im not mature enough in handling my own emotion.
i dono. i simply angry and without a reason.
Again, i see a deja vu in you. which happened the same last time. why the same things keep on happen? i think afterall it is my problem??
i choose not to talk to you, so that your single word will not boost up my anger once again.
maybe im stress out from the coming mid-term. i wish i could do well,breaking up my old records. i wanna throw away my bad result for last semester. perhaps, i should not be so attach. If not, the opposite effect will occur. i have tasted it for my econ common test and my account latest assignments. i should have learnt a lesson from it.
Not repeated my own mistake again and again. Just prepare as well as i can and give the best shoot at the final day.
was doing my legal revision half way, however, i find out im neither syntesizing the information nor absorbing it. im wasting my time. i couldnt understand the whole concept that i supposed to be. trying to read for a couple of time to simply memorise it. what a ironic for a legal student.
sometimes, will start to ponder, we are now fighting for result, after the result is out, what will we fight again. is our life an endless fighting journey..? why cant human be relax for most of the time and start enjoying life, instead of catching all these materiality ? just for the sake of good job prospect, high paper qualification, good reputation, etc etc..
Maybe sometimes it is good for us not to own anything. As when we owned it, we will fill with feelings of fear and scare. Fear of losing it.. and the feeling i can say is totally miserable. the worst thing that haunted you will be habits. the habits that u have been used to for a long time will now become a disease. A disease that uncureable, that only you can cure it by yourself, or replace it with another habit. what a funny routine huh..
Habits, according to mr bala, take 20 days to form a new nerve in your brain. However, to remove it, it takes a much longer time. Therefore, never ever get into a habit, which will make u suffer at the last. i have been used to be dependent on others too much. Maybe i shall learn to be independent now. You woke me up. You told me that one day you will leave, and i will be the one who left alone in this world. Hence, i need to adapt with my life alone, with myself. yea, can i?....