business cycle = emotional fluctuation

we learnt business cycle in economics..
business cycle is a term that used to describe economic fluctuations.
in a simple word, it can be said as up and down in a economy system..
well, im not econs freak. im not going to teach econ inside my blog aso..
just i felt everything in this world can actually be related..the trend of business cycle can actually related to most of the things..
There are four stages in business cycle: boom. downturn, recession and recovery..
while, if u still remmber the plot that we learnt in komsas during secondary school, u will still remmber how to story line go.. permulaan-->perkembangan-->climax-->peleraian..
see the similiarity?? haha..
then wat is the point am i talking all these crapz. well, i find my emotion has this kind of trend as well.. i can be happy.. then downturn and when come to recession stage i will be in depression.. and then oni i will recover.. trace back my old post in this blog, i found myself kinda energetic before this,i can find lots of way to motivate myself.. and i do find it is useful in my study.. i m no longer that stressful.. but now.. my motivation is going down.. im now feel so tired and im so stress cos of many undone homework.. how how how ?? haih.. wish i faster recover...
it is even the same in my relationship.. i just realise this no long ago.. when i 1st accept u , i will be very sticky to u ( which is commonly headache to most of the guy.) i will like to know everything about u at that stage.. but then it slowly face contraction, and i will feel like leaving him.. after that, i will break up (recession stage).. when i slowly recover, there are two possibilities, either i found a new one instead of u, or i will go back to u.. haha. funny isnt it??
and now.. which stage am i ??
last night we din chat much, u are free, im free as well.. but nothing more is spark between us.
what does this indicate? sigh.. i don dare to think of it..
i know u are still care and im touch with the fact that u oni wan me in ur entire life.
and i think that is enough.. it is enough to be the reason i love u .

something wrong with me..

Another sunday again, for this weekend, i felt im wasting time again..
if u ask me, what have i done for the whole weekend, i will say.. NOTHING.
omg.. how come i din fully utilised this extra 48 hours? sigh..
i slept until 11 just now. wow, how great am i...
but then i don seem to be very energetic right now aso.. hahaz..
very tired and i don wan to do anything..
what the hell is goin on me..

tired.. hypersomia..

i dono why, lately, i felt so much tired..
owes don have energy to do work.
i felt my effectiveness in doin work has fall...
i did not much things altho i stay back..
i m wasting so much time..
sigh!! so stresss...
today get back my legal paper, 18 out of 20..
well, it should be good enough.
work harder for my coming extended response...
scare o.. haih...
due to my ineffectiveness, i have accumulated many homeworks undone..
and it makes me stress..
sigh, i wish.. i hope.. i pray i can finish them..
yerr.. so many common tests are coming soon..
so scare... i have not been prepared yet...ughhh....
not i wanna put it to last minute, but i couldnt understand why..
i m so lazy right now...
im lazy-ing!!!!!!!!
help.. who can chase away the diseases of lazinesss....

9th of April.. a meaningful yet sad date...

just too busy with my homeworks and preparation for tests, until i have no time to update my deareast blog... finally...
today finished legal studies short response test..
well, it is not as relief as the previous test,
cos i think i was not doing it pretty well..
i aso dono la.. don dare to think of it..
i need to prepare for coming extended response, i think that wil be even harder..
i just find out i have problem in developing my idea through words..
i think the major problem will be i have poor command in my english?? i have no strong words to support my sentences.. and cause my idea to be quite LAME..
for example, the econ conclusion, i have almost the same idea with lum.. but then he can get 1 mark and i get oni the half mark.. sob sob!!! well..
this doesnt mean im going to give up and stop here.. i believe there sure will be room for me to improve in my english.. hehee.. just i need to take a longer time.. who ask me so late oni want to berusaha.. sigh..
but nth will be late as long as we have the hear for it.. so pls just support me!!!
alright.. haha...
i feel so tired and sleepy right now..
i wanna sleep edi..
but there are still so many homeworks pending..
ugh..
how...
i have esl letter..
math exercise..
econ essay...
final presentation for my research paper..
revision for econs and legal..
WHOA!!
i think it will take me a long time to list out all my pending work...
O.o
sei larrr...
don care..
i don care the consequences la.
i wanna sleep now..
good night.
although i know i will be regret when i wake up tomorrow..











today is 9th of Apr..
you have been leave me for one year long...
when i think of this, it makes me fall into depression..
i miss u, baby...
are u missing me too? muakss...

coincedence... all horoscope??

Coincedencely, today i published two pasts regards to my horoscope..
well, i really dono.. until i view back my blog again!! hahaha..
today really a tired day.. went to find julie at subang to study..
altho din study much, i think i had fun? LOL.. tried to study a bit aso la..
i think it will be much better than i stay alone at ridz!!
my kitchen ar.... is so disgusting right now, until me myself aso don dare to go in.. sigh!!
pity cleaner, have to clean it up tml..
thx them!!!!!!!
really tired.. i sleep 1st lor, the clock is going to show 12 in the morning...
night..zzzzzz

About me.. is that true?

‧你的太陽在巨蟹座
屬於巨蟹日座的人善良、敏感、富有同情心，長於回憶，具有高度的想像力和強烈的母性或父性的本能，熱心、保護色彩濃厚、謹慎、節儉、機靈、不屈不撓、愛國 家愛民族，是所有星座中最具家庭觀念的星座。 巨蟹座是十二個星座中最肥沃的，由月球所統統轄，主管一切和膨脹有關的事務，陽光造就生命，使地球上的生物欣欣向榮；月光和生長、結果有關。這是因為太陽 是垂直照射地球，而月光是水平的。如果植物只照射日光，不照月光，就不會結果實。 由於巨蟹座的守護星是月球，因此他們特別有女性及母性的氣質，情緒的敏感，支配了一切。巨蟹座的人生性多愁善感，他常會為過去那段美好日子而低迴緬懷，並 且容易生活在過去當中。他們喜歡將煩惱深埋心中而不願和朋友分享，經年累月下來，對消化系統產生不良的影響，因而容易罹患腸胃潰瘍的毛病。 在外出時，要注意飲食，因為你的太陽星座主宰胃部和胸部，所以要特別避免胃部失調，有條理的飲食養生法，可以避免肥胖症和風濕症。最好和家庭專門醫生好好 研究一番。體質雖好，仍需避免身心過勞，而加重你原本敏感的神經系統的負擔，避免憂慮、抑鬱和沮喪，最重要的是避免恐懼和導致疾病的情結。盡量獲取新鮮空 氣和陽光。


‧你的月亮在天蠍座
在占星術中，天蠍被稱為生死之門，也就是從死亡到重生，這意味著人生某種階段中，精神、情感上的折磨非常嚴重，內心的創傷非常多。天蠍月座的人亟需學會自 過去的舊創中解脫，惟有寬容再寬容，才能免去自己內心之折磨痛苦。天蠍月座熱情，有魅力，果斷。十分情緒化，需要肯定而穩固的指導，有時外表十分內向，實 則內心熱情洋溢，波濤洶湧。個人工作十分努力，同時也享受生命。對神祕之事和疑問富挑戰精神，以及具備洞察事物能力，時有驕傲和頑固的表現，受剋時喜怒無 常，憤世嫉俗，佔有慾強，有時還會作出不道德的事，影響了出生圖上其他部分的正面特徵。 本月座的人比較屬於敏感、多疑、缺乏安全感，情緒之中總潛隱著某種憂鬱。罪惡感和自我憎惡的情緒幾乎與生命同在，但是在本能地自我療癒過程中，他們不單能 深入自己和他人的情感中，並且憑著與生俱來的天賦，還能分析和洞悉人類行為的動機。從而直覺地用自己的方法將人自悲苦的情境中釋放出來。 記得，所謂從死亡到重生，就是要先歷盡人生的悲苦，一旦豁然貫通，則產生大無畏之哲學，終於參透了人生種種現象。 天蠍月座的人，在學習上很專注，一旦產生興趣，很能深入某種學科，可以說是專家中的專家，這是源自於一種固執穩重的個性，鍥而不捨的毅力，因此有大家之 風，通常在學術上擁有成為權威巨擘之潛力。 在情緒上，天蠍月座的人愛恨分明，情緒非常強烈，而且不願與他人分享自己的心情和感覺，什麼事都不肯說，心中的傷痕更是難以啟齒，別人會覺得你事事有所保 留，似乎很神秘的樣子，深沉而有創造力的天蠍月座似乎可以單獨的生活在自己的天地裏。 有時候你會讓別人來依賴自己，以取得情勢上的控制權，安全感的來源意謂著對全盤局勢的了解、控制和掌握。 天蠍月座的人在人生的某個階段，必須忍辱負重，不為他人所諒解，時間可能很長，所以如果遇到困難，也不必灰心，這也是一種經由死亡後再重生的宿命傾向。


‧你的水星在巨蟹座
你的所知，所見，所嗅，所覺竟是如此的敏感細緻，以致於你的心情隨著每一度呼吸而悸動不安，生活的情節將永遠埋藏心底，個人的心路歷程將永遠珍視難以忘 懷。 垃圾車的臭味污辱你的鼻孔，玫瑰花的芬芳正是上帝為你而設的傑作。噪音折磨你，因此你主觀認定噪音的目的乃為折磨你而存在，相對的，世界上有音樂的存在也 是藝術家貢獻你個人的傑作，優美的風景眾所目睹，但在你形容起來，好似任何人都沒有你的覺受那麼真誠，這種性格取向使你成為容易大驚小怪的人，如果你堅持 要對別人訴說你的愛恨情愁，真很容易引起別人的厭煩。 善於捕捉良好時機，對商業、不動產、骨董發生興趣。清晰的記憶力，豐富的想像力，必須有肯定的創造性出路供其發揮。和氣、體貼。賦有直覺，喜好幻想、欣賞 詩詞歌賦，有節奏感。做事有技巧，具外交手腕。 你擁有一種第六感，你的直覺能力是無懈可擊的，你往往能夠肯定一件事卻不需要真正知道你是如何知道的。一種喜歡感覺與不願講求邏輯的偏好深深的影響著你。 假如你水星位置有著不良相位的話，你的記憶力可能不好，但是假如相位好，有的人可能具有較好的記憶，尤其對於人名，日期與過去的往事特別有獨到之處。 你對於你四周的人與處身環境都很敏感，你不能忍受不能意氣相投的任何人，堅持己見，但對於日常事物卻十分易變。無端的憂慮、恐懼和狹窄的心胸，都是必須遏 止的傾向。會記仇。 這種敏感細緻的性格能使你在藝術方面發揮特長，因為藝術即是藝術家之心情，藝術作品及藝術家人格的投射。努力朝此方向邁進，時時警惕自己要奮鬥不懈，你就 能在藝術領域裏發揮天份與特長。 除非還有其他強烈對於水星的良好相位，水星在此座並不是精神力很強的位置，這種人的心智並不活躍，而且過份的受環境感應的影響。


‧你的金星在獅子座
你的感情表達很戲劇化，可能真誠但經過計劃，不是自動自發的，卻也不是虛偽的。感情活動是你的靈魂深處絕不可少的部分，但你感情的表達也必須先確定是正確 無誤的才行。真正金星居於獅子座的影響，是使你在愛情方面收發由心，發時春意盎然，收時冷如寒冬。 這個位置的金星能使你變得非常的受人歡迎。你就是能自然而然的吸引出別人感情中最溫暖的一面。而別人也為你的和善與誠意的親切感所吸引。 子女和藝術才能可使你獲得快樂，以平衡家庭所帶給你的封閉感。有創意。快活爽朗，忠實、寬大，惟喜怒哀樂稍有不定。感情略顯激昂，不能盡情享受快樂時，則 有慾求不滿的現象產生。 你喜愛支配駕馭你所愛的人，通常所用的方式倒還算討人喜歡。但是你也能為了愛情，做最大的自我犧牲，或者為了你所愛的人的快樂與幸福，你能犧牲一切。對於 你的家庭，你所愛的人，你是非常忠貞。 就你而言，愛情並非雙向交流的過程，而是你的一廂情願，這並非意味著對方對你不理不睬，而是在整個事件中你一向是有我無人。如果你想要儘量發揮你的生命光 彩，金星在獅子座倒是個好位置。 女性示愛的型態是直接顯露出喜怒哀樂的情緒，毫不避諱。有時你是頑皮的貓咪，有時又像是高貴的女王，時時刻刻有各種不同的變化。以為自己就是世界的中心、 自我意識強烈的你，對愛情的表現是熱烈的、誇張的、散發著浪漫氣氛，而且極富於戲劇性。一旦對方忘記了你的存在才是他的生活中心時，你的愛情會立即轉變成 憤怒和嫉妒。有時候，你也會表現出蠻橫不講理的一面。但是，內心的愛情卻是誠實的，並且非常專情。 男性所喜歡的女性類型：喜歡炫耀自己愛人的這類男性，嚮往的女性是美麗、有魅力，平常就是眾目焦點的女人。善於甜言蜜語，或是幾近諂媚以及對她略施小惠就 會很感激的人。另外，婚後可以允許你有大男人主義的人也很吸引你。外表身材高挑又有魅力、五官突出而且氣質高尚的人。你追求熱情又深知自己的魅力而善於打 扮的女性。


‧你的火星在獅子座
火星在獅子座時最好的性格便是熱心及對目標的明確概念、性情活潑，喜歡運動。富創造能力，工作態度認真，有責任感。脾氣暴躁，但來得容易去得也快。通常慷 慨大方、重情感、不拘小節。性喜交際，愛與他人為伍。然常會變得很傲慢，惟仍舊擁有強烈的目標意識和誠心。天生的戲劇感在火星受剋時會造成行事故意誇大。 你富有事業冒險心，具有膽識，對於富足的生活極有野心，伴之以熱切，會成為一股強大的力量，你對於慾望的表達總是持著驕傲的姿態，但又渴望被眾人認同，負 面的特徵是過度熱心，誇大的傾向。 火星在獅子座顯示在情感上有一種非常高貴的表現，藉著藝術創造力及熱情的愛二者達成。你不只是在感情上是熱情的，而且你以一種大方自信而且開放的態度來表 現自己。你喜歡伴侶稱讚、激賞你的性能力，當對方愷然自若而坦率的表露感情時，會激發你的追求，性驅動力強而持久。 女性所喜歡的男性類型是有威嚴、有包容力、具有領導能力，能夠成為別人之長官的人。在社交舞台上活躍，嚮往權力、追求名譽和地位，會讓你過舒適生活的男 性。約會時也是選擇一流飯店，讓對方非常盡興，為理想和希望而努力充滿上進心的人，這些人都深得你心。 男性示愛的方式相當積極，一旦決定和某人交住的目標，就會採用肉麻且過分的求愛語言，進行密集攻勢。他是心胸寬人的情人，自信心也很強，大部分的事都依照 一己所想的來做。喜怒衰樂直接表現在表面上，非常富有戲劇化。也有急性子的時候，期望對方亦能快速地反應。希望黑白分明，最討厭磨磨蹭蹭。 你是一位自負而爽快親切的領袖人物，天生擁有很強的精神力與自信心，因為你的火星品質優異，你擁有驚人的實際行動力與指揮能力。你需要表達自我，並顯現成 就，但有時你會變成強求和支配別人的獨裁者。


‧你的木星在雙子座
你通常是一位富有同情心，善良，而且富於人性的人。多才多藝，胸襟寬大。喜愛新知，擅長以敏銳、幽默的語氣說話。如果能發揮靈活的頭腦，則運氣自然轉佳。 由於對書寫方面、說話方面以及旅行頗具心得，所以，有足夠的才能擔當商業、外交、醫師、教師、著作等行業。或者極易擔任高中教職。 你喜歡自我教育，學習能力很強，交際應酬能力良好而且心胸寬闊。在某些團體中，你因著你的聰明和創造力可以成為「軍師」型的人物。 由於性情愉悅所以你很討人喜歡，而且你能出人意表地透露顯現此種歡樂的氣質。你擁有多方面的才能，你可以開個店面、寫作或教書或者從事郵購商品的行業。 興趣廣泛，時而凡事懷疑，時而輕信他人。但凡事喜表現的傾向，會妨礙了心智的發展。在受剋時，狡詐、魯莽、善變、不安。 由於木星在雙子座，你可能必須和你的兄弟姊妹分開一段時間，或者你將經歷兩度婚姻。如果你的木星和太陽系其餘星曜的相位不良，則你應避免自己成為恃才傲物 或是附庸風雅的人，而且你要練習好好地處理自己的浮躁傾向。 木星在此星座的誕生者，以雙子日座，天秤日座，水瓶日座等風象星座旅遊運最佳，而以雙魚日座和處女日座旅遊運較差，若您是個射手日座的人，則旅遊的機會在 人生的歷程中特別多，而且有不得不動，被迫遷動的遭遇。牡羊日座及獅子日座的誕生者因旅遊而創造新機運，金牛日座，天蠍日座，巨蟹日座和魔羯日座等四個星 座的旅遊活動將伴隨著壓力和麻煩，有時候是樂極生悲，應較為小心。當然詳細旅遊運的好壞，端視天宮圖的其他部份有無特別強調的地方，不可一概而論。


‧你的土星在魔羯座
你渴望權力、榮耀和威嚴，對於政治、商業、科技或任一與公眾名氣相關之領域，對此而言，這是很好的土星位置，因為你具有毅力、細心、計算能力、實行能力以及組織能力，你可以輕易地達成你的內在需求和外在目標。 你喜歡庸人自擾、自負而嚴苛。經濟方面很吝嗇，當環境容許豪華的生活時，依然節儉如常。當然，保有節約美德的背面，即是不關心其他人的貧窮。在受剋時，較可能悲觀、嚴厲和自私。 喜愛權力、能負責，但極端的傾向會主宰了正面的特徵。過度重視志向，因此做出許多自我犧牲目前快樂或眼前利益的事。因為你在意凸顯你自己的尊嚴，所以你會擺出冷漠和嚴肅的面貌，對於上級的命令無不服從，也希望你的下屬以同等的努力和尊重來對你。 土星在魔羯座的誕生者為了獲得安全感，通常在人生的早年都有一段辛苦奮鬥的時期，你天生願意努力工作，且視努力為成功之門乃理所當然，如果成長背景良好，則更珍視家庭、自尊和榮耀。 依據土星相位的好壞，也可能發展成人情練達或自私自利。但你的敏感度、幽默感及忍耐力較差是不爭的事實，你的外觀實際、嚴肅而有責任感，但應試著避免獨來獨往、獨斷獨行或者是在態度或信念上太過嚴肅僵化不能融通。 你擁有有實際能力、毅力、願服務他人、有紀律、耐心，以及所有的土星正面特徵。耐力強、慎重，行事踏實，富雄心壯志，且因此得到成功。 惟因擁有利己傾向，故想從人生之中獲得更多的東西。如果你的土星位置和太陽系的其餘星曜相位不良，你可能對自我欠缺信心，也可能為達目的不擇手段，你也可能會變得自私、專制、孤獨以及不自量力，在身體上應注意骨骼和關節的疾病。


‧你的天王星在魔羯座
天王星在魔羯座的誕生者天生為打破傳統而努力，你可能為反對而反對，你可能對你那充滿叛逆性的青少年時期也還記憶猶新，或者你雖未打倒傳統，但卻在舊瓶內 裝了新酒，事實上也達到改變傳統的目的。你具備獨特的領導能力、良好的組織能力。時常會從意想不到的機會中，得到成功。若天王星未受剋，具有深思熟慮及嚴 肅的特質，但若出生圖其他地方出現反叛性及專制的成分，這些就會十分危險。具有不為一種職業所約束的能力，並會有誇示自我能力的傾向。

‧你的海王星在魔羯座
海王星居於魔羯座的誕生者，擁有較濃厚的父權意識，行為上也較傳統及自律負責。具備能具體活用直覺或靈感的能力，直覺及靈感能夠形成具體的結果。可使超能 力轉變成控制科學的時代，或許此一代的人以將前一代人的發現守成並加以改良，拿出他們前一代所欠缺的實際能力。也可以將詩情畫意的想像力融入實際生活之中。在受剋時，工於心計。不過，也有因隱藏自己的能力而成功。

‧你的冥王星在天蠍座
有人認為冥王星進入天蠍座是新時代（水瓶時代）的開始，有人反而認為是世界末日接近的時候。冥王星在此星座的影響，人類金融制度不斷改良，也發明了許多新 藥和新療法。但反過來說，此時期使得人人皆受到各種不同型態的死亡威脅，戰爭，疾病，天災瀰漫全世界，性氾濫成為正常現象，如果從好的一面來看，縱使不用眼睛看，心靈也會追隨絕對的正義，宇宙和神明力量。對因果反應，死後世界或生命的奧妙有新的發現，且顯現真理是永存的。

‧你的上昇星座在金牛座
給人的第一個印象似乎是始終與緩慢的時間之流同生滅。可以經由金錢交易，換取豐富的材料和財源，以發揮能力。舒適與安全感是他們追求的生活重心，因此，有 些金牛上昇者就會以財富換取安全感。有的則會因缺錢的不安全感，而抓狂到只要能賺錢，什麼事都可以做。喜歡人生美好的一面，善於創造形象美。並且希望利用美好事物和金錢創一番事業。他們不會對任何事物遽下斷論，他們的一言一行總是慢慢的，安安靜靜的，有時 甚至是令人不耐煩的溫溫吞吞。以嚴謹的態度分析思考，全心全意注意細節之處，以便發揮能力。另外，對社交方面持周全觀念，相信任何事都有它適宜的位置，故對任何事皆想確定，是否均按固 定位置整齊地排列著。為此時常探討、思索，以致被自己所愛的人當作神經質看待。對宗教、哲學不但依循其傳統觀念，且非常保守。而所具有的人道精神多半經由自己的職業而發揮。 有關經營方面，常根據自己獨創的觀念和實際的想法來賺取金錢。不在意浪費小錢，透過與他人合作、溝通，賺取利益。對於服務性質的工作，可以和其他人一起妥善地完成。追根究底，其所以和同伴和睦相處，且積極幫助對方的原因，多半是以金錢為終極目的之故。身為老闆極為公平，因其能以一視同仁的態度對待員工。關 於職業，由於喜歡群體工作，所以隸屬於大企業和財團的機會較多。對待兄弟姊妹和左右鄰居的態度很有親切感，頗似父母親人。關於思想的傳達，由於常常引起各種事端，所以極為不安定。為從事買賣、金錢交易等，故常常出外旅 行。覺得權力和地位富有魅力，因而尋求具備創造才能和實行力的伙伴，與之一起奮鬥。由於易在伙伴之間引起嫉妒、鬥爭、所有權慾等紛爭，所以須多加留意，雖說須改善其和伙伴，社會間的關係，但超越人世間的種種障礙之勇氣，也不可欠缺。待朋友寬厚、體諒，且有豐富的同情心，期望與朋友一起鑑賞藝術，不過一旦選 錯了交往之對象時，隨即會有陷於不相信別人的困惑中。一般說來，家庭對金牛上昇者，是顯示自己的創造力和地位的得意場所。對來訪的客人極為殷勤親切，並充滿了熱情。可獲得遺產。又因金錢慾望大，所以，以其利 益為目標時，處事十分方便。具有潛在的勇氣和決斷力，不過，有時因衝動和強求也會破壞這兩項優點。

helpless

"Sunday, Apr 6th, 2008 -- You aren't as hesitant today about expressing your darker feelings and may not be able to stop yourself from saying what's on your mind. This isn't about you suddenly turning aggressive; it's about listening to your inner voice. Don't keep your thoughts locked up even if you're not sure about the consequences of disclosure"

it is my horoscope for today, i started to wonder how true is it? how many percent i can believe in it? i really gonna crazy.. i felt so much fed up with my current so called "friendship".. why is it like this? i feel sad with it.. is it my problem as i treat them not good enough? why must there be so many conflicts? why cant everyone be friend like old days? why..? what is the thing gone wrong now??
im so fed up right now.. i cant see a hope anymore in this friendship.. evryone seems to be think of their own benefits oni and ignoring others' feeling.. how could this be? ugh... why the friends i met now is so much different with those in the past days.. well. i know the world has been changing, im now staying at a competitive world, only those who are stronger can survive and those who are weak will be forced to quit... and im one of the weakest.. but what is the use of friend?? when u need help, they will lend u their hand.. when u are happy, they happy with you..
is this kind of friend not exist anymore??? what in their mind is all other stuffs??$$?love?result? sigh..
im sad sad sad sad sad....
but i cannot do anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hate for my helplesssssssss....

Half day of my weekday gone!!!

Yeah, today is weekend again.
i went out to meet denise and san.. well, not very close with san, so.. kinda bored actually...
walk walk walk.. and the funny thing is i start to feel sleepy..
haha..so i decide to leave them and went to popular to buy my stuff..
once again, i get obses with all those stationaries!!! OMG.. they are so lovable..all aso i wan to own it... i think i spent more than an hour in tat particular shop.. i intend to look for a ring file oni.. and buy foolscape.. but then due to my financial crisis, i bought a file oni.. and nex time i will oni go buy for the foolscape..
and u know, i lost contact with den, actually wanna go find her, but i cant call up to her fon.. so i go to jusco and buy some groceries.. again, the new jusco no coverage so they cant find me.. i choose and pick, end up spent 45 minutes again!! with oni 4 items.. whoa!!! i really pui fuk with myself...
after finished, i wanted to meet them back, so that i could give back den her popular card, but then i still cant call into her fon.. and wat the most unfortunate things was that, my phone dead!!! so... i decide to go back 1st and recharge my fon.. i was trying to search for public fon, but dono what the heck all the public fon are used by people.. so i just walked straight to my hostel.. the day are dark, and it seemed to rain soon... how hard i pray in my heart so that the rain will oni come after i step into my unit, and thanks god.. it works!! haha..
after i come back, then i faster switch on my fon and den called me... im so sorry that i left without informing her, but then.. it just happened like this!!! hope she wont angry.. SORRY DENISE..phew, so tired right now.. just finish file up all my messy notes!!!and regret that i din buy one more file just now.. haha..and half day gone!! ugh.. i need to study tonight...
i din talk with mayker since the moment i came back, i feel so akward.. she was in the room and i just came in without a word... i do my stuff and she does her stuff.. no interaction at all.. she is outside and i m inside.. haha. wat a funny thing!! before i stay outside from home, i never know that staying with others are so suffering! i never know so many problems will occur when face each other for such a long time.. especially same course same class same room!!..
if u get a good one then nvm.. but then if u get a problematic roommate then u will be in troublesome!! not oni personalities got problem but the room aso messy like hell...haih... if i and her not tat close last time, i think the conflict today wont occur! last night she brought guy back to house again, who is her new bf i guess..named kelvin.. haih, i m wordless for that, and i dono what to say edi..
sometimes, just think of that how good if i could leave this unit.. and stay somewhere else..but all these are impossible larr.. so many problems will occur again.. i actually don care whether she brings guy back or not la, but then a little bit respect to me la, please.. im staying inside the room aso lor.. it is so uncomfortable when a stranger (guy) is sleeping inside the room.. i rather u inform me early and i sleep outside... haih, i know i bu shuang just simply i bu shuang her edi.. i know i know.. this is wat called BIAS... but then im a human too ma.. i edi consider good cos i just keep silent all this while...jus let me blame for a while in this private space!! if not, i will go mad one day...
haihz.. just stand for a few months then i can be free from all this edi.. pretend im blind.. i din see anything then can...pretend she is not exist in this room.. pretend. pretending.....

sick of homework.

sigh, im supposing to be doing my homeworks right now.
i don understand why the homework just seemed to be no end for it!!
who can cope with so many homeworks...!! well.. actually it is not a lot, but i just cant pay full attention in doin it.. my mind is all about some messy stuffss...
i don understand why when i stay inside this little unit,my mind will wondering all around the world, i just cant pay attention in doing my homework, somemore, i will have the temptation to online... and end up i will do nothing at all... besides, the bed is also seducing me.. to climb on it and sleep!! ugh.. so many temptation in my house...
sigh, i just don feel like doin homework overall.. but if i dont, i will feel sorry to myself...
im wasting time again..

i wish i could....

my energy is running low for the whole day..
i wonder why. i can even fall asleep in my econs period!! OMG..
how dare am i .. the teacher is well known as strict lecturer..
lucky me, she din see me fall asleep..
then i fall asleep for the second time in my IELTS class...
what the hell is happen on me??!! the sleeping worm seemed to affect me for the whole day..
supposing i will like to go back early and rest.. but then i still stay back at schooll..
to finish some of my homework, and i din regret for it..
i atleast finished my two left essays and the math homework!! well done.. clap hand! hehee..
need to start my revision edi, there are some class assignments ( in other name is called test) awaiting me ahead in the coming week!! im going to die again..
haha.. if like this, i dono how many times im going to die in one whole year...
well.. the friends problem among my friends is getting worsen and worsen day by day..
from oni mk until now ivy aso involved edi..
well, i really donwan side anyone.. i really think all these are unnecessary.. what is the point by bringing out the issue again.. no one is being affected at last... just argue for the sake wan argue.. beh tahan!!!
i felt ivy's thinking need to be grown up a bit. sometimes the world is just not tat easy as wat she thinks.. she had been pampered and lucky enough by borning in a good atmosphere.. she is being protected from all the bad influence..just like how i was.. i was lucky enough to born in a healthy family..
but then im given a chance right now to access to the real world!! how ugly is it. and how dark is it.. and lucky to meet someone to teach me how to survive in this nasty world..
baby, i miss u.. miss those innocent day..
sometimes i rather i dono so much, then i wont change my perception and i wouldnt fall into conflict right now...i hope i can lost all my memories right now..
tired ler, don talk so much la.. blog more again nex time!! nitex...